~ Tree of Life , living diary ~

Got the results at last....

2008-10-25T05:47:00.000-07:00

Confusing, Hot - 29'C

Well, it was really heart attacking kind of thing when I woke up this morning and turn on the laptop to check for my results which are suppose to be release today...
turn out that the result haven't release yet this morning... ok, so I rushed to school and check again after an hour... still it's not out........... patiently, I wait until break time and checked again... well it's pretty obvious it's released now, just that I couldn't access it!! how irritating?! since it was a really short break, I gave up and this time my heart beat getting stronger and stronger ... I couldn't wait till the lesson is finally end... WOOT!! after some mind blowing wait... I got my result at last!!.... Here is it...

DIPLOMA IN BUSINESS STUDIES (BANKING & FINANCE)

Result:

AACS1744 BUSINESS INFORMATION TECHNOLOGY & APPLICATIONS A- ( Distinction 3.70 )
AAMS1733 BUSINESS STATISTICS A ( High Distinction 4.0 )
ABBE1013 MICROECONOMICS C+ ( Pass 2.5 )
ABFA1014 INTRODUCTION TO ACCOUNTING A ( High Distinction 4.0 )
AELE1133 ENGLISH LANGUAGE B- ( Merit 2.75 )
AEMS2032 HUBUNGAN ETNIK B+ ( Merit 3.0 )
ASCG1201 SWIMMING (LEVEL 1) S
ASCG2201 SWIMMING (LEVEL 2) S

It's really shocking when I see this... I actually got distinction for BITA?! wow.... I only study like for ? 4 hours before exam? I think it just sheer luck for it. and both the results for BS and IA is really quite in my expectation as I really worked hard enough for it to get what I deserved... the bad thing is ME... well, I already know it would be bad news for ME as she left that day... I hardly can concentrate in the exam... another bad is english.. sad that I only got merit for it... I was like thinking I could get a higher rate at least like... distinction.. HE which I think is just a junk subject.... accidentally, I passed it... and got B+ without even giving in any effort... har.....? lol............. seriously... weird.... well it doesn't concern me anyway... my main 4 subject out of 3 is in Distinction and above... that's good for me ~ =)

Made a new friend today.... her name is Ruth... me, Daphne, Ruth visit Suntec City today... It was good to take a break after long hard study week... I've been staying in school to get my things done everyday.... but I know, it's not enough, as I don't really get a grip on the ideas yet... more improvement needed... luckily this week has 1 holiday, thanks to Deepavali, I can get my things done before next lesson which can prepare me for the next coming exam... my aim this time? All A's... I'm going at it in full capacity, nothing will stop me!!

Love Life... Good or Bad?

2008-09-28T23:32:00.000-07:00

Is getting into a relationship at this moment a good thing to do when we were in the midst of study? At the beginning, I think I'm fine with it and I will managed it without problems... but alas, when the joy spill.. It strike me hard when she told me she want to part with me.. Though, we will be physically parted but I never think of that we will be seperated so fast.. When it came, I really couldn't concentrate in my microeconomics exam which I think it will sure be goner... I can't even think in the exam hall... But then, I guess I'm all over it now anyway, everything is fine... Eventhough I still miss her a lot, but I know she's just my memory now... In my heart she will always be the one I love.. It will never fade...

So.. I've moved to Singapore alas, I couldn't help it... I really don't want to at first, but I can't retreat now.. There's no choice for me other than just move forward and head on the road to get my degree done..

This is my promise to her, and myself.. I will do my best to finish it...

REJECTED!!

2008-09-09T00:18:00.000-07:00

Hot, Frustrated!

My application for a student's pass has been rejected by Singapore's ICA.. Moments ago I've been thinking that what if I stay in TAR College and complete my diploma? I don't know now.. I'm on the edge of no returning... I must get my place in Singapore, if not the effort I put will all be lost..

If you asked me what about my girl friend and friends at here? I really don't know... I guess it's really not my time to think of this.. my career is at stake now, I've to be strong and be determined this time in order to success no matter it is TARC or SIM... I will definitely be the one of the best student....!!

Happiest Day!! 17th of July 2008!! Happy Couple DAY!! Yahhoo..

2008-07-16T11:59:00.000-07:00

Infinite Happiness, Rainy Day – 27’C

I hereby proudly announce that I’m not single anymore!! As of 16th of July 2008 is the day where it marked the day that I’ve at long last found my love life again. I’m seriously in love with her, and couldn’t hide this fact anymore longer than a minute so I will share it with you all here first~

So here’s the story, we went out for dinner last Monday after my swimming session ends and I guess we enjoy the meal or rather the chat. At the time, I took my chance and asked her whether want to go for a movie with me and she said she will be considering it. Once we get back to our own living place, she told me that her best friend couldn’t come for the movie, but she will go with me so I’ve got a task to book the movie ticket due to I’ve experienced a lot of times that on Wednesday the cinema will be packed with people and obviously I wouldn’t want to lose this perfect chance at all. So I actually took a big step by going to Midvalley the day before the show to get the ticket ready, crazy huh? And this time, I really carefully learn the way to Midvalley to avoid the embarrassment of taking another wrong turn again which happened last time and end up reaching after an hour and a half later for a 20-30 minutes journey.

Well the day actually arrives and I’m really looking forward to meet her. But everything looks really weird today and it actually looks like she’s not going to go with me this makes me really nervous and worried about it. But then, turns out she really goes out with me and I’m really happy! And of course it’s my best day ever! We go for dinner at a pub like restaurant in Midvalley which served varieties of food. I’ve ordered a nice meal, and she have noodle but I think that she don’t really like it because it’s not really anything special than outside food it just looks plain to me. Probably because she knew I will paid for it so she ordered it because it’s less expensive. But I can assure you the noodle bowl is seriously huge, it’s actually larger than her waist, faint~

Ok, now the movie part. We were kind of rush due to the movie have already started about 20minutes so far and we actually thought that we could enjoy our meal! Crap right…. By the way the movie we watched is “Wanted”. Inside, it’s not cold at all today which makes the jacket I brought for her useless, darn~ And her hand today stay rather close to me, but I’m too scaredy cat to hold it! Grrr…. Shoot…. Anyway, back to the movie its really nice but it has a lot of imaginary stuff inside which makes it really fake but interesting. After the show end, she told me she can’t get the movie which makes me feel worst.

But then, at last finally I braved myself and asked her the key question which at last turn out she told me she likes me too! COOL! And here I’m now blogging to tell you guys!!! Well, I know it will be really short, I mean the time we will be together but well I know I will do my best to make her happy and I guess our relationship will last even though it’s a long distance one. I have faith in our relationship and I trust her. And the today, 17th of July 2008 – 01hour32minute44second will be the day I will remember always because next month is her birthday, 17th is actually just the next day of her birthday =)

p/s: her name is ShiChin, nice name right? I will be posting her picture soon or rather our picture once I get it =) I love you ShiChin!!

Season of Love...

2008-07-13T11:59:00.000-07:00

Weird, Hot – 28’C

Waking up today with a knock on the door by my housemate, C.H and I’m surprised that he actually brought back Angeline who is my classmate, as I introduced her to C.H. Well I think they’re getting along well enough which left me wondering what about myself?
What would I be of if I ever tell her I love her? Would I lost her as a friend or would I succeeded and having her in my hold at last? Well, I wouldn’t dare to tell her now no matter how would I wanted to though I think she might have guess that I like her at least by the way I talk to her in the message? Or maybe she just thinks that I’m just kidding with her or even worst she might have already attached to another guy...............
Aw...... think about it makes my head hurts, I could have been better off if I never socialize at all and maybe just stick with my work every day? But then, I did really finish all my work in time and have been scoring something for my test, well not really that great yet, but I’m going to go for the high distinction level soon enough...
>.< hope that before August I will get my answer from her.... either way, I really hope that at least she would be my best mate ever even though we might not make out....

p/s: I just got a haircut and I will be showing her soon my new haircut =P oh by the way, her name is shichin, isn’t it a nice name? =)

Back to Planet Earth.........

2008-06-28T09:13:00.000-07:00

Tired + Moody, Extremely Hot 29’C

I’m finally back online after so long~ There’s a lot of happenings lately but sadly that I don’t have much time to wrote down everything at here, because I’m busy~ my schedule is pack, way too pack than I expected it to be. Let just have a peep at what I will have tomorrow k? Let’s see, I got to wake up at 0500 tomorrow to get prepare, pick up the girls, take some light breakfast and left at 0600 for the Olympic day run at Independence Square. Oh, and after that, I will come back and have a nap perhaps if I’m lucky enough, but… I think maybe not, because at about 1600 I will have to go to the Orientation Odyssey Night held by the college which I never thought of even going…. Well since there’s invitation for me, so I don’t have choice but to go.. And, what do you know, I’ve already take up swimming class as extracurricular activity at college hopefully I will lose enough weight before I go to Singapore?

If you think it’s my time isn’t that pack, well, to tell you the truth I had 3 groups of friends now… 1st group is at the place I currently live which is my housemates, 2nd group is my course mate cum study group and the 3rd group is my social group which is friends from others course of study……. I think the groups might expand again because I still have assignments to go, worst still I’m being grouped in with other people other than my study group…… Happily, almost daily I have activities with them and at the same time I would have to concentrate in my study which is my main aim at the moment…… So I guess I will stay single at the moment or at least hang on until I’m in Singapore? Ah yes, there’s more… a lot of pressure and burden has been dropped on me lately too, namely parent, relatives, and assignments? Not to forget about the tests… Life is really troublesome, but I learned 1 thing is that, no matter how hard is it, I will have to live on… Stay focus, concentrate and of course fit! At least there’s 1 happy thing happened after all, I lost 5 – 6kg~ hehe… I will work hard to reach my targeted weight that is 63kg. 17kg more to go only…

p/s: I'm afraid I can only post something per week or maybe half a month..... really busy, there's a lot of test going on after this week....

Focus and Focus!

2008-06-12T03:02:00.000-07:00

Moody, Hot – 32’C

Don’t know why I just had an urge to eat more today, is it because that I need more food? Or is that just my want for cravings? Anyway, I still haven’t taken in my dinner yet, which I’m really frustrated about that where or whom should I go and dine with? Certainly not the girls because I’ve work to do today, my tutorials work has piled up, maybe the boys? I don’t know yet... Since I’ve pushed the invitation way too much, they probably won’t go with me. But since I’m on diet, I’m expecting something light or something that’s balanced which I don’t know where the boys would go. Or maybe I’ve to dine alone, which will result my dinner with just an energy bar or energy drink, well, I’ve already messed up my meals today, I had muesli this morning with full cream milk and followed by 2 slices of bread. Later when I’m back, I had 3 slices of bread coupled with Milo which later I dunk it in the full cream milk for lunch. Hmm..... Usually I had around 5 meals a day started this week early, but since I woke up late today, I had to have my breakfast at about 0930 which is often time for my tea time, and I had my lunch at about 1400 later which already exceed my intervals. I got no clue where to have my dinner now.

Here’s my meal list if you’re wondering why I said “5 meals” per day
1. Something light for breakfast, often a glass of Milo or energy bars early in the morning
2. T ea will be energy bars, 1 packet of cookies or 2 slices of bread
3. Energy bars or cookies for lunch
4. May have rice or noodle for noon, or energy bar if anticipated that will go out later
5. A glass of Milo or something balanced if goes out.
This will be coupled with brief exercises early morning, and soon hours of swimming or some gym sessions.

By the way, I have to maintain focus, stay concentrate in my studies and try to be active and balanced my social life. This is why I’m a little struggling now with the major lifestyle changes in me, as you all know that I don’t like to go out and was a rather couch potato type of person, but now, I just couldn’t resist going out and have fun and have nice food at the cafe and enjoy my social life. Think about it, is it a better change or is it making my life worst? Well I’m sure is it better, but if I really overdo it and ignore my studies, I will be in deep trouble. I couldn’t understand much of the lectures or tutorial because there’s some problem of notes and tutorials not dispatched by the printing manager in time this week, which I hope it won’t happen again next week, it’s a rather dire situation, because even without notes, the tutorials or lectures would still be carried out but in a time wasting manner, as I don’t have the notes to refer to and I don’t get to know what the lecturers teaches.

Oh yeah, other than that, I have a tight budget to manage too, which is really tight because amazingly, I’ve overspend from the first week without noticing it, COOL! Let’s just hope June pass by fast enough so I can get my allowance again, but seriously, I should get extra allowance because I’ve to stay on my own last weekend which make my spending wider. Well, if I really couldn’t get the allowance, then I guess I will just have to buy more grocery and have another 2 weeks of canteen food. There’s quite a lot of happening this month, but I wish it has nothing to do with me, or rather it is not, but it just does anyhow related to me.... First, the significant rises in fuel pricing but my allowance aren’t going to rise anyway. Second, complicated family matters... Third, the wave pull effect of the raise of fuel pricing which soon expected prices of food, grocery and etc will raises.

Important lessons I’ve learn this month:
Time management
Budget management
Focus, concentrate in studies and balancing my social life @.@

Toward an Organized Life....

2008-06-07T07:51:00.000-07:00

Dreaming, Average – 26’C

Somehow today I feel that I can touch loneliness, probably because I’m in the rented room alone and out there my housemate all back to their hometown or maybe go out and have fun at this very Saturday. What left only me, a lonely boy in this silent night, everything has been really quiet today since I’m the only one here.

Anyway, I’m not going to spend my day just sitting in the room. I’ve already sketch out a plan for managing my time, this time I will follow it strictly and get everything done in time and learn to be punctual and exact. Everything seems to be working out really fine after all, and maybe I might get a chance to meet her before I go to Singapore, because after this we will really be parting and most important of all fulfill my wishes to celebrate her birthday with her….

Counting from now, its 3 more month time before I part with msia at last, an exile, a relief, a journey to success which will begin in this moment, everything is dependent on my performance now. No matter how hard it would be, no matter how tough it might be, I will take no tolerance in hesitance, I will go on, continue the route that I’ve chosen and be in the lead. Anyway, I can anticipate that it won’t be easy at all, because from my experience in last tutorials and lectures, I couldn’t get anything from it.

And in the social part, I think I’m doing a little better than before, I learned how to socialize with the people beside me, I dare to stand out now, not like the me that try to avoid any connection. Though still, I still have much to learn, the knowledge isn’t limited, not at all, what limited is just us. Through this I’ve signed up for the debate competition that day to learn and improve myself. At least these days I dare to do stuff that I won’t do usually, being active in everything. Maybe I might join in the swimming club for some lessons to enhance my swimming skills.

I felt that I really learned a lot by coming to KL. I learn the importance of leadership, time management, socialize, utilizing of money, and support and friendship. And maybe love… Once the most important element in my life which I’ve try to dilute it, but that doesn’t meant that I don’t need it anymore, is just that I’ve become considerable in some degree, and I know this isn’t the right time for me to engage in a relationship although I really wanted to. Thus I learned that self-limit is really important too =)

Part of my Thoughts.....

2008-06-05T13:23:00.000-07:00

Moody, Sweaty hot – 27’C

Waking up this evening thinking about what should I do to further my career in the near future after doing some article reading in Reader’s Digest. Think of it the sudden hike in fuel pricing really making mess for us, think of it, it’s just another simple economics equation when the price of fuel raise, the related products prices would raise, people would have to fork out higher living cost but getting the same old kind of living standard. And the appreciation of Singapore’s Dollar or maybe worst depreciation of MYR against SGD makes it harder for me.

I’m now really afraid of that I couldn’t cope under so much of pressure. Life isn’t as easy as it used to be for me, and I’m most regretted that I wasted the opportunities to do well last time which I suppose I won’t be repeating the same mistake now by learning to be a better man.

Not doing really good lately, a lot of problems and hassle arising around me. I’ve been pressurized, but I’m already half in it so I think I will be fine soon. May look for a part time job to save up some money before I go Singapore and I will definitely have to continue my budget limiting in Singapore as the living cost in Singapore is definitely higher than it is right now.

Just finish settling fees payment for Singapore Institute of Management, later on have to get the dates and waiting for the issue of new offer letter, registering for the ICA of Singapore. Well too much of hassle? That’s how it is for me now; I can set aside this matter after now for about 3 months then again start busying with it again. And it’s not that free for me now too, I’ve a lot of assignments and tutorials work unfinished which I’ve lecture and tutorials to be attended from morning to afternoon later. And I’ve to really commit into my studies here before I start in Singapore, because basically the syllabus in Singapore are most likely same like here after viewing of the prospectus.

I just hope that after this there won’t be any unexpected hurricane coming near to me. I don’t want any more impact from the outer space. I just want to concentrate and focus in my studies, so please spare me from it!

p/s: I’m regretted to online when I’m blogging because I can’t gather my thoughts and obviously this post will be really messy. T_T

Hungry!!

2008-05-28T05:32:00.001-07:00

Moody, Hot as Usual – 28’C

Had fun with Yanny, Joey and Jorovy at Sunway Pyramid and watched late night show at Mid Valley Yesterday.. Took a lot of photos there, part of it is hand picked and ready for view in Angel’s album =)

Woke up feeling dizzy and hot, don’t know why these days keep having night mares… Had a really boring day today, today have ethnic relationship and business statistics lectures.. I got no joy in ethnic relationship lecture because it’s based on communication in yalam.. Later on, there’s business statistics which in another word is mathematics under cover >_< it’s hard, but then think of it, I can do it when I wanted to right? Ok, I will cope with it no matter what it takes!

After lectures, messages Joey to asked whether they wanted to have dinner together, but well, they said they’ve already got plan, so I wish them a happy day and I just had my “dinner” in canteen which is really… ….

Got no choice, because I’m broke, I can’t exceed the budget that I’ve already set, I must follow it, what’s all… A little bitter now will lead me to sweet later.. So why not just wait for it? At about 1800 I couldn’t stand already, so I drank a glass full of milo to ease my hungry stomach… T.T still hungry now, but then! Buck up!! Buck up!! I got a budget to follow and a spare tire to lose!!

One Day In KL..

2008-05-25T09:30:00.000-07:00

Happy, Windy – 25’C

Ok, I woke up so late today, and I just go to bang my way into the bathroom and take a speed shower and rev my car to school! I forgot to pack my bags and energy bar and lost my complimentary ticket to the movie – Prom Night!! What the hell, that’s what I thought, what a harsh day it is! Can’t believe that I actually had this day! So bad!

But hey! I met a guy whose name Jorovy, special huh the name? He’s talkative and pretty resourceful person I think and kind of a popular guy, he’s the attraction to girls.. Well, through him I got to know 2 girls from Accounting and a girl from psychology.. Too bad I didn’t get to know the girl who studies psychology.. Oh and she’s the ice-cream queen actually! She had 5 ice-creams that day at least! And after the trip ended, 4 of us Jorovy and Yanny and Joey go out for dinner =)

Basically, if you asked me is the trip that fun? I will say, it just normal, for me, making new friends is more meaningful than the trip =)
Oh, and me and another housemate finally started to talk to each other and for really long! Found out that he’s actually like me.. Wasted his past 2 years for nothingness.. so we chatted for about 1 and a half hours.. Hope that all of us will do our best from now on and not to waste our precious time anymore…..

Soaking Wet...

2008-05-22T06:27:00.001-07:00

Moody, Hot – 29’C

I drove to school today for the first time, I felt good because I don’t need to sweat a lot this time and well I’m prepared for it with a handkerchief this time.. If you can see my handkerchief today, you will be think of is it just fall into the drain? It’s soaking wet all day long!

I met two new friends through my housemate today which is from another school.. But I guess we will be ok? Hmm… As I go along, I think I might meet more than I think I will… TARC is really a big family..

I received a news yesterday, which I don’t know is it good or bad.. 1 thing I know is that I’m stressing for it.. At first, I’m really happy about it! What the heck, I got accepted into SIM!!! No one think I can enter SIM, well I proved I could!! There isn’t little to apply for it when I’m there.. There’s a lot of them apply for place in SIM.. It’s hard to decide whether to choose SIM or TARC.. Well, I’m basically settling down at TARC and making friends… If I go SIM now, I will need to face new challenges all over again and it’s hard to not notice that to study in SIM, the fees is rather hefty and that makes me worry about what should I do later because I won’t get a choice to go to Australia as if like I’m completed my studies in TARC.. I will have to stay at UNISIM later which the cost will be actually the same after all.. I’m really worried… There’s scholarship I know but it’s for the outstanding achievement students.. Well.. I know I could do it if I’m really into it.. … I will try my best and plan first before I decide..

Best of luck to all of you..

p/s: Oh yeah, I had a sticky situation in explaining that how I’m related to my half sister today in order to get the car entry permission sticker into the school! -.-
And I actually lost the money which is in my fingers for minutes before it "disappear" into the thin air! I know it's not a big amount, but I'm still sad about it... I could have a meal with it... T_T

.............

2008-05-20T08:52:00.000-07:00

I spent my time listening about someone talking about how I pestering Elaine.. Right.. As if my life only revolve around her.. She’s my love once and I would like to be with her, but I don’t like to force people, so we are basically friend! Whatever you say is just myth.. There’s no fact in it, and I seriously need to study and improve myself. I’m serious about it, not going to suffer any more due to my negligence in the past…

If I would have a girl friend right now, obviously I will be concentrating on her… I’m not a playboy.. I believe there’s eternity love as I mentioned earlier… If you’re trying to say something please at least make sense… My blog, my thoughts, my diary, my life, this isn’t article or some harry potter stories… It’s my life!

Hopeless...

2008-05-20T07:03:00.000-07:00

Lonely, HOT! – 30’C

Ok! I swear that I sweat a lot today… It’s really annoying, the sweat keep dripping until I have to remove my glasses.. The best thing is? They gave us the T’s we paid and asked us to change it before entering the hall.. well that helps a little.. At least I’m not so sweaty after changing.. but it’s really annoying though… The temperature actually rises till 34’C in the noon… what kind of joke is this??!

Had energy bar as breakfast coupled with a glass of milo. As for lunch, I had mixed rice in school canteen, average taste but it’s cheap.. Had dinner at my bro house, think I missed my mum cooking now, weird huh? Just 1 day…

Oh yeah, you wouldn’t believe me if I told you that I lost my way in the college and I’m holding a map, how cool is that? Sigh…

Rejected..

2008-05-19T10:35:00.000-07:00

Moody, Hot – 29’C

Just now chat with Elaine for a moment before I start ironing my clothes for tomorrow’s orientation day. I’m being rejected again for even just a lunch date, generally I’m sad but I’ve already prepare for this, so there’s no hurt.
It’s quite late when I arrive at the room I rented near the college. It’s about 234x and after I bring in all the things and rearrange everything in my room to ease the messy feel, I finally notice this room is really hot… I’m not kidding… yeah .. HOT.. I’m afraid I might get sick… d4mn… And before that I’ve covered my vios up with the linen I brought months ago. It’s d4mn hard to cover a car that big!

Well.. at least the orientation only start after 1400… so I will take my time and do something useful before I walk to college. Maybe socialize a little because my housemates are in the same school as me.. Feeling tired now but still it’s hot and I can’t take the orientation day out of my mind now.. I’m really nervous..
And this is my horoscope for today:
Don't let group-think dictate your next few steps -- you've got to go your own way, even if it means bucking the system. It should work out to your advantage in a big way, so have no fear!

p/s: I don’t really think this sounds good for me…

Thieves Is In The House !!!

2008-05-15T07:47:00.000-07:00

Moody, Hot – 29’C

You wouldn’t believe what I post later, as I couldn’t believe it too… I “lost” my Panasonic Lumix in the room yesterday.. Guess what? After searching for it for the whole night, I gave up on my camera already.. Of course I’m sad about it, and about something too, well Jan you know what I’m saying right~
Woke up in the morning feeling so moody that I don’t even want to go out.. But my mum said she will get me a new camera… well I’m really hesitate to get a new one cause I really want my old Lumix back even it’s not the nicest camera… But, since I really need a camera which I don’t have 1 now… I dragged myself out with her, after finishing “chores” given by her, I drove to 1 Utama..
Found the Sony Specialize Store there and the next minute I’m already charmed by the new T-300, but well…. I ditched my thoughts of owning the T-300 after I saw the price.. Which is really WOW.. The cost is about 2k if I wanted the same equipment with T-70 or T-200 model.. And after serious consideration, I took T-70 because it’s alike if you compare both side by side just the screen of T-200 is larger and perhaps a little bit stylish and the color variant left black only T_T..

Oh the unbelievable thing start here.. I got home at night and my mum overheard the devils conversation…
“ Wife : hey did you saw your brother’s camera? He lost it.
Brother : ssssshhhhhhhhhhhsshhhhhhhh……. “
Well the wise one would know what happen here right? It’s so obvious he took it…… d4mned… If not for my mum, I think I already reported it to the police.. But I have to thank him because I now have a new camera… The one I wanted a year ago, new version though..
-_-

If...

2008-05-14T10:48:00.001-07:00

If I missed you every day,
Will you even look at me?

If I’m sorry,
Will you be the one to pardon me?

If I made my move,
Will you be the one to follow it?

If you were the one I love,
Will you love me in the end?

If life is a statement,
Will you be the fact of what I’m?

If I tried to be the one,
Will you hug me in the night?

If I risk my life for you,
Will you care for me even once?

If I reached my limits,
Will you meet me for the last?

If fate would have us on,
Will you become my life?

If I could just make you disappear from my life,
Will my life be better?

If I could just poke myself with a knife,
Will the pain overcomes you?

If I could just stop my heart,
Will my heart ease to fall for you?

If my mind had stopped working,
Will you be out of my mind?

There won’t be any If at all because you’re not with me, because you’re not the one who used to love me, because you’re not the one who would forgive me at all and because you’ve changed… Things have changed since the day of 19th passed. Things have passed since that day had itself passed too.
If you were to see this, will you be the one to stop me for longing on you? If you were the one to hear this, will you ease my heart from bleeding? I wish there was any If, because If you were here in this moment on, I will not hurt you anymore, I will shield you with my life, I will be the one to make things happen and together we will live till the end of the world.
No matter how hard I cried, no matter how hard I tried, there just won’t be any If in your life, there just won’t be a reason for you to pardon my sin.
My soul would be halves without you, my life would be tarnished without you, and my heart just won’t be pure without you anymore.
I wish I would have the courage to ease my heart on falling on you, I wish I would have the guts to calm my feelings for you, I wish I would have stopped my brain from thinking of you and you will be certainly freed from your eyesore……

X1ng..

Jokes... Trouble Again..

2008-05-14T02:40:00.000-07:00

Complicated, Sunny – 26’C

Even after so many problems arise… There’s uproar in the morning today… I’m not sure what happened but, my half brother woke me up with a “BANG” of his room door… And in a sleepy mood, I listened to his shriek.. It goes like this “I’m tired of this…. What for I work so hard??” It goes on with his indon wife shrieking too and crying “let me off…” The next thing I know, his wife took a knife and ran my brother off with it threatening to kill him if he don’t let her go…

What a crazy family… and so I heard my mum told me later, my brother was drunk and choke his son and later I heard that his wife go eat LSD… how cool is that? … It’s d4mned much trouble I’ve on my hand already and please! Give me a break, I don’t want to get whirlpool in this anymore … god bless all these people… (and d4mn those too)..

Personality Test..

2008-05-14T02:25:00.001-07:00

I've took a personality test recently conjured by my sis's friend.. I found the test is quite amazing because its outcome is rather accurate!
It is said that I'm related to this traits, cautious, accurate, precise and patient.. I value Procedure and support, and seek for fact and timely… I avoid uncertainty and changes… When under pressure I might evades and may also compromise..

"My advantages are that methodical and cautious, I will need time to produce results of high quality, concentrating on accuracy and detail. Prefer to plan ahead, and concentrates on careful organisation and the avoidance of risks and complications, takes care to anticipate difficulties. My skills is said to be lie in finding useful and realistic solutions to problems.

My disadvantage is that I'm lack of assertiveness in my personality which coupled with my naturally reserved and reticent approach, which can lead others to assume that I have no interest in my work. This is not necessarily true, as I simply prefers to keep my feelings, either positive or negative to myself but perceptions of others may lead to difficulties of communication and further integration.

In terms of relationships, my basically passive style means that only under the most unusual circumstances will I make an initiating step in a social situation (or, indeed, in a situation of any kind). More commonly, I will wait for others to make contact and respond appropriately. I do have a social side to my nature, and values friendships.

My current attempt to present myself as less reliant on other's views may impact on my communication style. The main apparent change from my natural approach will be a slightly more assertive stance on issues that I see as important. "

Well personally, I think this test is really good for me because I myself not sure what I'm and I'm sure this will be very important for me to make myself better in terms of life, relationships and work or studies..

Aries's Traits

2008-05-14T00:10:00.000-07:00

For what I know about Aries ( duh, I’m an Aries ), it is said that we’re represented by Mars so basically we’re Martian? It is said that, we love challenges and are dominance, but if you said we would be like that in relationship? I don’t think so… I’m rather passive although there maybe times that I will make the first move, but that would be after under serious consideration of the consequences because I love to think ahead.. Yeah, we’re plain enough to be understands easily only if you wanted to do so..

Haha, Aries do loves to show their toys and gadgets =) So yeah, I do hope that my girl have traits of girls like pretty, thoughtful, cute smart etc.. Aries love to compliment their girl and magnify our girls good point if you know what I meant, hehe =) that means, it’s like there’s no bad point in the girl we love…

This is a little bit funny, but true.. Aries prefer the likes of prince and princess love life, that is happy ever after and eternal love from the girl we love and at the same time we give them the same.. I think this is every couple dream? Not only Aries right? Hehe…

Aries projected a playboy image to people? I don’t think so? Or at least I’m not… when I’m into a girl, I will stick to her till the end well to tell you the truth, Elaine still my first choice even after all these years.. And yeah, I put in all my efforts into my relationship and it end up I’m in deep hurt…..
Well, sometimes Aries might be a little selfish but it’s only because we don’t know what to do at times not that we’re not thoughtful for girls…

One thing is, when we fight, hell yeah… we must win or else our confidence will be shattered! This is real bad if we argue with our girls.. But deep in heart, we know we are wrong at it, and we will apologize after that and hope for your forgiveness…

Of course, when Aries comes to marriage, I’m really serious about it, I care about it, and even though I might be a little selfish in my opinion, but that’s only because I care for you not just days, weeks, months, years.. It’s about whole life, I will took it as my responsibilities to take care of my girl for eternity =) yeah you heard me~

“after being a father, you would notice they will like your children, will call you “mummy” it shows our inner child” hehe… that would be a statement I think.. That’s because even though after we have our own children, we still need tender care from our love one right~ because from start, we think that you’re the best in our life and we hope for the same in you =)

In regards to Janet’s post to Aries Men =)

my love.........

2008-05-11T09:04:00.000-07:00

SAD

2008-05-11T07:00:00.000-07:00

Tired, Hot – 28’C

End up today Jesmin texted me about the owner final decision…. Guess I don’t have the pleasure to live in a condominium T__T .. Can’t help it, I’ve made up my mind to just rent a lousy looking terrace’s room with a 5 minutes’ walk to TARC first… Will be going for a lookout tomorrow 0900…

I’m quite disappointed to get rejected from renting a room in PV3 T__T …

MAD, FREAKING MAD!!

2008-05-10T07:51:00.000-07:00

Tense, Tired, Headache; Sunny + Hot – 27’C

I’m feeling nausea now, very dizzy…. I don’t know what I should do to deal with the current situation, the route to degree isn’t that easy and painless as I thought, in fact, it’s freaking hard….. I may sound like I’m complaining, but other than that; I really don’t know what I should do at all… I’m confused, lost……

I was out there finding room today, and pop, problems came to me as if I’m giving away money….. I just wanted a cozy room just for myself, a small one will do….. Why must things always end up like this? I know, part of it cause by myself, but shouldn’t it end already?! ……
Anyway, I found a room at least, a normal room in PV3, called up a girl name Jesmin and ask for the room, she’s quite responsible.. She contacted me countless times and we discussed what to do about the room and the payment… At least I think it ended well in the conversations. If nothing going wrong next week, I will be moving in to my personal room in PV3…. But I got to pay 2 months deposit with utilities bills deposit and sign required to sign a half year contract with the landlord. This really complicates my current planning…… Since I’ve signed up for SIM and now I have to wait for SIM outcome.. IF I got in, the course will start in JULY! So, I got to find people to rent the room if not I would have to sacrifice my deposits….

Oh yeah, guess what? Just now when I’m on the way back, I nearly crashed with a BMW…. How cool is that? That d4mned guy just came out from the side and after I sound the horn, he still just cut out from the side……. !@$#$%&Y#%$W$@$#R$%@# ……..

I’m freaking tired…… And tomorrow is mother’s day, so I wish every mother in the world, HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY!

Couch Potato - Me?

2008-05-08T09:09:00.000-07:00

Very Moody, Hot + Cold – 28’C

Stay in KL for about 6 days and perhaps in coming months? Or years.. Not really comfortable with this place, every single day I end up in traffic jams, and the drivers here aren’t really that friendly, no not like you need to say Hi or something, just politeness in traffic? KL drivers really suck, they drive without mercy, if you don’t pay much attention, and you will become a sandwich in no time!

All this long time, I’ve been a couch potato, nothing better to do, or simply just my feeling isn’t right for doing things. URgh, I’ve got to do something about it, else I would be like 3 years ago, a typical couch potato………………. Humans got to live with a lot of distraction in their life, which is so … d4mn…
Well, at least, I don’t have to put up with so it so much soon, I can have my own space, a small room this time hopefully next week…… Peace at last~ got out from my indon nephew’s devil hand….. Not feeling well these days, probably because I couldn’t get use to the environment and the people around me.. Really miss JB, easy to access, nice food, near to Singapore…..

There’s a lot I wanted to wrote, but maybe that being a couch potato turns me into a retard.. Couldn’t think of what to wrote at all, I got a lot of reading to do now to build up my grammars and vocabulary once again, will blog again soon. T_T miss my pal, Janet and NEVER miss T.J =P

New Journey...

2008-05-01T03:23:00.000-07:00

Moody, Sunny – 31’C

Don’t know why, but I'm just feeling moody today, wanted to chat with people. Hmm, maybe it’s nothing new about me being moody, been like this for ages. But today definitely not the same, might due to the fact that I’ll be leaving for KL tomorrow – another beginning of a new chapter and journey of my life which I won't be really enjoy it at all.

Something has been haunting me for ages since 2005, not what you think it is. Not those dirty thing haunting me, but something else, or maybe it’s me, myself who’s been exaggerating that effect by thinking too much of it? That's because I really care about it, too much perhaps. After all she’s my first and seriously only after we separated only I know that I’m the one who’s been offered love by her – weird, but true and I need it badly. Tender care and love from the one I love....

It’s not really good to think much about it isn’t it? After all, those days has passed long ago, like 3 - 4 years? Well, at this point, a new beginning of my journey in my life, I will have to try not to think too much of it and let it be history, since I have something really important in my to do list and my future is actually at stake if I fail to complete this task, the very task that set by myself. So! Come on, get on with it Nicholas!! Wake up!! Move ahead already!! Work hard!! Study smart!!

Been eyeing on something lately, hand really itchy but seriously although I do have the money to buy that phone… but I swear I can’t be like this forever, keep wanting things that I already own, as this will lead me to nowhere but poorer and I’m certain that I wouldn’t want to be like that. Self control!! Self control!! Come on, I already had 2 phones and 1 PDA, I don’t really need another 1 after all, it just would show that I’m a spendthrift! Yeah, I’ve to have self control over myself and my wallet =) so I will just let it be at the moment.

Have been chatting with Janet much lately, guess I’m already start to miss her. Ok, not what you think, we’re just good friend I guess? After all she already has someone she likes. I wish you good luck here, girl, with your Irish Coffee =)
By the way, me too am a little bit nervous now, because I might get a chance to meet Elaine, but I’m certainly have to work it out well, maybe not as couple, but at least best friend?

Guess you would laugh at me if you know that I haven’t even pack my things even though I’ll be leaving tomorrow~ haha… There’s not much belongings to pack also, I could count it all out here. Hmm, let’s see what I have and do some simple counting here:
i. My Vaio and Acer
ii. 1 Lexmark printer
iii. 1 Sonic Gear speakers
iv. 1 PlayStation 2
v. Some clothes, maybe 2/3 of my wardrobe
vi. 1 Nike bag carrying all essential documents
Guess that’s all I need, little isn’t it? Oh yeah, I will of course bring along my doggie and pooh pillow together =)

Countdown to KL: Approximate 15 hours?

A Long Hot Day..

2008-04-27T09:46:00.000-07:00

Moody, HOT – 29’c

Watched The Forbidden Kingdom stars by Jackie Chan and Jet Li two days ago, the show is rather weird with the title to it, but still it’s quite a movie. Humorous and comes with a little bit of a sad part and most importantly the fighting part. Jackie Chan Versus Jet Li ~ that’s the best scene, the others fighting scene are just average.

After the movie, my mum decided to go to Sushi King for as I told her that I will foot the bill as a treat for the coming mother’s day. I know, I know, it’s a little early still have 2 more weeks to go, but then I just wanted to spend some time alone with her, so I decided to make this treat earlier. I’m so full after the wholesome meal in Sushi King! This is the first time I ate that much after I’ve recovered from sick days ago.

On the next day, I woke up early in the morning and had the noodles which I loved at the food court and it taste great as always =)
At around 1000, I drove to Causeway Point for the meet up at 1100 but I ended up stuck in the traffic at the causeway there for at least an hour and a half. I was so late, and I found out that actually there are two more girls waiting at Causeway Point’s KFC -_- this makes me feel more ashamed of my lateness.

There’s Ting Ting with her hair shortened now, Pei Qi as usual I think? Cass same I guess =_= I’m so blur today that I didn’t even notice Ting Ting’s hair at all before Pei Qi told me.. Then the girls has decided to have lunch in PizzaHut -_- wonderful, actually I was thinking of others food there have or other place which serve some special food? I’m not Singaporean but I’ve tasted Singapore PizzaHut’s food at least 10 times when I stayed at my aunt house last summer holiday~ Wanted to have spaghetti actually, it looks attractive to me, but the girls wanted pizza, so I just go with what they wanted. The pizza today was average, the Seafood Supreme actually, taste funny, I think that the Seafood Supreme Pizza I had today doesn’t up to the standard. I remember last time the pizza in Singapore is a lot better than Msia, but it seems that the pizza actually taste the same…..

Later then, after billing we go to Civic Center which opposite Causeway Point and ended up loitering in the library for half hour before the girls make up their mind and decided to call it a day…. So that’s it…

Oh, there’s a gift and a greeting card comes with greeting from Mr and Mrs Jiv =_= want to know what is it? It’s a lighter ~!!! I really wonder why would I need a lighter and what makes he think that I would need it zzz… I never ever think of develop smoking habit or something that would need fire? Hmm … well thanks anyway, it’s special though.

On the way back, I’m stuck in the traffic once again for another hour or so… I’m finally back home another half and an hour later and got a chance to rest for awhile before going to my aunt house for dinner.
At around 1700, my mum suggested to get some ice-cream for the kids… So I headed to Jusco and brought the Wall’s minis for the kids at my aunt house.
Had a nice dinner at my aunt house, though not really filling but it’s good enough. I haven’t had my aunt cooking for ages since last year, been missing it since then because she really beat my mother’s cooking hand on hand ( by a lot actually ).

I’ve started to work out my budget and I’m going to have another booklet to work out my schedule for effective monetary control and work scheduling because I wouldn’t want any further delay in my pursue of a degree anymore as I’ve already wasted lot of time! And of course not to be a spendthrift anymore.. I need a better plan for my life.. A plan to succeed..
A planned living leads to a better future at any point of time =)

Well.. Though I might not tell, but I think I will miss my friends, whether they’re from Singapore or JB.. There's a million word to say, but I couldn't find a chance to voice it out.... Farewell…. for now….. Keep in touch and take care..
I don’t think that I would online much due to my next living place doesn’t have any internet connection over there… Might have to wait till my course start then maybe I could online by using the internet there.

Countdown to KL : 2 more days

Get Well Soon..

2008-04-25T03:38:00.000-07:00

Dizzy~ , Drizzling – 32’C

I was sick yesterday! So sick, that I couldn’t stand up.. My world suddenly turns upside down and I feel that everything around me start turning! But I try to pull out the last bit of strength out of myself and finished up the puzzle. YES! At last, the puzzle is completed! And it’s open for adoption, anyone kind enough to accept my little present? Well it actually wasn’t that small.. LOL.. it’s 7x CM X 4x CM… Oh yeah, I actually puked last night and didn’t have anything other than 2 slice of bread and a glass of milk -_-

Got no appetite today… My brunch today was a plate of macaroni, felt so full after finished half of it, let my mum have the last of it.

Felt slightly better now, and having a long chat with Janet right now.. haha, find out she too was sick! Get well soon girl~

An Accident...

2008-04-23T02:56:00.000-07:00

Moody. Rainy – 31’C

……………………………… After a long chat with Janet, I’ve go to the banks to change the mailing address again.. The first d4mned driver I met was a yalam lady who just happened to just drive out of the corner without paying any attention to me who was coming from a straight route! GOOD.. How cool is that?! Luckily I dodge her car by crossing to the opposite lane and utmost luckily there’s no other car in the opposite lane.

Afterward, I go to Maybank and after dealing, when I reverse my car, something great happened! I’m pretty sure my reverse aid didn’t sound at all ( mean there’s nothing behind when I reverse ), out of sudden I saw a car reversing and BANG! That Wira reversed and bang my car, the best thing is? That driver claimed that I’m the 1 who’s at fault because I reversed to his lane ( this is totally nonsense! How could one reverse the car without being cut into the opposite lane??? ). Out of goodwill I compensate him by paying for the new rear lamp at the nearest spare parts shop…….

Countdown to KL

2008-04-22T07:19:00.000-07:00

Foodie, Cloudy – 28’C

If you ever wonder what’s foodie, simply put it, it mean a person who enjoy food. Found this word suit me the most under these days. Have been finding food every hour simply because I just wanted to eat. No idea whether it’s a sudden passion or is it because I’m too lonely or bored, but I just know I need food! Not just any food, it must be nice food~

Been to a health campaign organized by Setia Group last weekend, found out that I’m overweight or obesity ( knew it long ago, lazy to bother it anymore, since lately just wanted food, but then will revised it soon ), what’s good is, my blood pressure is normal, hmm… If you refer to my history, I don’t think that my habit is a good one, quite surprising that I would have a 120/80 blood pressure. Well, guess I’ve to maintain a good one, by distance myself from oily food and staying awake the whole night ( this is unlikely after I go to KL ). OH, and I found that I only have 1.68m tall measured bare footed… When I first heard, I was like HUH?! I always thought that I’m 1.70m, hmm, well I guess I’ve to thank NIKE because with the shoe, I’m really 1.70m+

Been to Pontian again, this time simply just to visit my small aunt ( uploaded her house picture ), well that because I will be moving to KL after next week. Rather disappointed about this visit, because when I went to that shop which I wanted to visit the next day didn’t operate that day! How lame is that…. I’m hunger for that shop fish product food~

After breakfast at Pontian, my mum brought some planting use stuff then we’re on the road back to Johor Bahru. Been to my uncle shop to meet up my aunt from Singapore. This meet up really annoying, simply because my dinner for that day was at City Square Food Court, lousy food and high – priced thanks to my aunt which thinks that the food court there would actually serve better food and cheap one………………….

Send the car to Service today, gosh.. The car maintenance fee is so high compared to my Vios! -_-
Been to most of the banks too today to change the mailing address, which is tiring!

Countdown to KL : 8 days
To do list : complete my puzzle, move things from my room to the master room etc.. YA, the most important thing is, TASTE EVERY FOOD I LOVE BEFORE I GO!

Long Long Day .....

2008-04-14T10:20:00.000-07:00

TIRED, Rainy + Sunny – 27’C

Woke up at around 0545 this morning, because that I forgotten that there’s no ERP on the way. How stupid am I? I thought there’s ERP on the way, so the best time to avoid ERP fee’s was before 0700 or after 0900. So get on with it, woke up then washed my face and then got my butt out of my aunt house and climbed up to the 5th level of the multi storey parking where I parked that car yesterday night.

Set of to King Albert Park’s McDonald for my breakfast in a rather sleepy mode. Having the new Sausage McGriddle with Egg Set and Hotcakes with Sausage, or not to forget, a nice hot cup of Cappuccino and Evian drinking water =)

And what do you know? Later on, you wouldn’t guess what happened we heard a car alarm rang through the whole parking lot, and my mum asked hey, isn’t that our car? I hope it’s not. BUT, back to reality, it is! Ok.. That car turned out to be a star on the road and me too had turned into the attraction of public, how cool was that? The best thing is? I drove the car whole way from King Albert Park’s McDonald to the accessories shop that I planted the security system near my house at around 08xx. Obviously the shop hasn’t commence it operation yet, so the car alarm never stop attracting people’s attraction for at least another 2 hours, NICE~ It turns out the circuit board of that car alarm system was short circuit or something, but they’ve already exchanged it with a new 1, so I think it should be fine. Although the parts maybe defective, but the shop has scored my trust, with good after sales service.

My day went on after the havoc the car caused with me back to my house and have another 30minutes rest or so. Go out again to settle things off, first got to RHB bank to settle my mum’s credit card payment. Next go to Standard Chartered Bank to update my passbook, which I noticed there’s a new RM50 posted out and I’ve actually have 1 with me now =) Then, been to the electrical appliances shop which I left my tower fan for fixing weeks ago, but the shopkeeper told me that the fan hasn’t been fix yet so he will call me after it’s done. Drove to the nearest post office and dropped in the reply for my supplementary card free insurance thingy. Saw a food court on the way, so drop by and have my lunch there – plain porridge with dishes. After that, go back to the accessories shop to fix another remote for the car which have to be synchronize again ( due to the old 1 has been exchanged with a new one ).

My long day ended after I’ve helped my mum signed up a Gold Credit Card offered by Maybank ( she already has one about 7 years ago, but that card got no special treats or something, so I suggested her to upgrade it to a better card. ) Home at last! At around 16xx…… After some article reading I lay on the floor and dozed off till 22xx only woke up. Have a nice and long chat with Janet, a little chat with Pei Thing and said Hi to Jiaoni.. Lol.. Ok that’s my day, a long long one -_- wish you all have a good day too.

One Liter of Tears...

2008-04-11T23:32:00.000-07:00

Moody, Sunny + Cloudy - 27'C

One Liter of Tears, the show evolved around the life of a teenage girl, Aya who falls down when she was at the age of 14 on the trip back home from school. Later then after the examinations from doctors, she has been diagnosed with a rare case of illness which causes her brain and body to dysfunction. Although that she’s tired and even bed ridden in the end, she still would choose to live on, she doesn’t count her life as unfortunate, she think that it just a little inconvenience for her. Her life ended when she was at the age of 25 years old and 10 months. It’s a touching story, which is a good example for us, a normal person, who is more fortunate or convenience than Aya. Even though life has been hard for her, but she would still goes on….

Although I didn’t cry for it when I watched the show, but I felt rather regretful for what I’ve been doing in the past. I didn’t really appreciate much of everything, and maybe that might be true that ning, told me that I was always complaining about things happened which is really bad. I should have appreciate and make use of what I have.

Life is everything, so live on.. No matter how hard it is, I believe that there will be a place where we actually can live life in blissfulness if that we worked for it in the past….

Stupid Day..

2008-04-11T03:12:00.000-07:00

Moody, Drizzling - 28'C

It was cold today morning, and I had a lousy night due to my sleeping pose. No idea what happened during that but I was in pain when I woke up, find my neck strained.

After shower and my breakfast, I got to the car dealer to get the warranty booklet and insurance cover note which I supposed to get it yesterday, the sales assistant fixed the car no plate position for me too. Lol, something funny happened too, the sales assistant actually posed beside my car and took a photo because it’s his first sale!

Then, finally I got my first ever credit card ( supplementary ) from Public Bank, it was a MASTER CARD -_- what the hell? I thought I did tick on the VISA column in the application form? Never mind~ I hold nothing against Master Card if that it serve me well, you can see it in the angel’s album =)

Later, been to LHDN to complete the income tax form for my mum ( e – filling ). The building is currently under heavy construction work but it still in operation, kind of weird, and scary because when I in the lift, it gives a rattling noise which would makes you think of it would fall and it would be a deep one!

In between, I had a row with my mum again. She’s really being annoying lately, paranoid I would say and very aggressive, keep on trying to pick a fight, unreasonable. Sigh…… Anyway, I’m just glad it ended early.

A Day Wasted..

2008-04-10T06:38:00.000-07:00

Clear, Rainy Day – 26’C

Today, I learned that a little misjudgment and too much trust to people would actually causes the whole plan to foil. So if something is more important, do it first regardless of what you need to done afterward, at least you’ve completed what you need to do first and left times to worried about the less important matters.

Here’s the story, today I was supposed to go to Public Bank and collect my first VISA Credit Card ( supplementary of course for emergency uses ) and later should go and collect warranty booklet and etc for the new car, but at last I choose to set up the car alarm systems. Because the technician told me they can get the job done fast, but it turn out they couldn’t complete their work for another 4 hours -__-

So….. I couldn’t make it to collect my sub card T_T and couldn’t make it to get the warranty booklet too, I’m so stupid ~
Hope that I wouldn’t have to go through all this again, I will try to plan my to do list well next time to avoid another day being wasted.

Troublesome Day..

2008-04-07T11:02:00.000-07:00

Moody, Drizzle – 27’C

Will there be another turning point in my life in year 2008? I wouldn’t know for sure. There’s a lot of things going on these days, one of which happening to be a source of my problem last year temporary removed for now. Will it be a good sign, or another beginning of a nightmare?
Why would life have to be so demanding? Will your next move actually be the move that would let others checke mated you? The answer would be after what you’ve done, not before which is a very objective thing.
I wouldn’t know the philosophy of life myself if not I don’t think I would still be here, not at least ended up like this or lets say this is a real beginning for my life, another reroute but definitely a good one.

My advice? Leave thing as it is if that it doesn’t concern you, if you got whirl-pooled in something that isn’t in your league? Have it done as soon as possible before they dragged you till that it actually suffocates you to death. Plan things well and expect things got out of hand because this is what things would does always. No plan would be perfect without stepping stone, but one thing for sure, if you didn’t have any plan, you got to took all the blame for everything.

New Car Onboard ..

2008-04-04T07:17:00.000-07:00

Moody, Cloudy - 27'C

=_= .. I’ve went out whole day again today. Wasted a lot of time for the new car, Naza Forza. First, been to the dealer, then went to JPJ. After finished registering the car, finally it’s on the road for the “first” time ( not really, as it’s been driven about 100km by the dealers I think before they hand to us – wicked ~ shouldn’t it be a new car?! ).
After so and so, I drove that car to the tire shop and traded in the tire to the current tire which is larger in size to increase look wise and most importantly the safety of the would be passenger – me =_=. An hour or so later, we got to the car accessories centre to fit the car tint into the car. This time, another 4 hours gone a little bit crazy isn’t it. walao~ there goes my day..
Oh, if you all wanted to know, that car handling is better, but I don’t really like the gear knob position, too low for me. And the worst thing is, I think I had some kind of phobia. I’m afraid of driving small car after driving my Vios. T_T hope I won’t have to deal with that car much, overall rating for that car is fine.

Lookout for the car in the angel’s album =)

Puzzle Making ...

2008-04-03T09:54:00.000-07:00

Friday, Windy - 25'C

Started to do my puzzle at last, never know it require that much of patient 2 hours ago. Spent a lot of time to just finish up the frame, guess that's because it's my first time that I actually pay attention in doing the puzzle, hope I can finish it before I go to KL.

Don’t know why, I just couldn’t stay low these days. Always got blew away, and if you wanted to know, I had a row with my mum again, not once but more than one just for some stupid reason. Doesn’t hope that would happen again, as it would really spoil my mood for anything which I don’t want to especially if it involves in my studies as it is linked with my future.

Hmm, if nothing goes wrong in my application this time, I will be right back in 1 or 2 months to continue my pursuit for my degree through SIM Diploma in Management Studies. However if it happens to not going my way, I would be just fine to just stick with Diploma in Business Studies ( Banking & Finance ) in TARC.

Look out for my puzzle first stage in angel's album =)

April FOol........

2008-03-31T10:53:00.000-07:00

Gosh, I'm seriously lucky!! If that I've born in another 10 or more hours I would seriously have to endure with the nuts day for my entire life.. =)

My long, long day...

2008-03-25T06:32:00.000-07:00

Rainy + Sunny – 29’C, Clear, Moody

My day started off under a shinny and sunny Sunday.. It’s rather hot these days, but couldn’t complain much as I know someone would reminds me there was a place which reach 40’C.. Lol.. If you saw this post then comment a little =)
As always, nothing much happened between morning and noon, had spaghetti’s for brunch..
The “fun” started at night, my cousin sister drive me to my aunt house with her 2 months old MYVI .. This is the first time I sit inside MYVI, the outer look of the car looks fine, but when it’s in motion it really shaky, but I found out it’s rather fine if you’re finding a ride which is fuel efficient and sporty with an affordable price… If you wanted a good ride, go for Jazz with VTEC engine, that’s the ride with good performance which I doubt MYVI would have..
After some shaky experience, we’ve finally arrive at my aunt’s house, you should know what happened right.. When aunties met, there’s “speeches”, but I’m glad that it only goes on for another half an hour.. Then my cousin brother arrived, with his red army, which composed of his wife, little cow ( anyone know the word for it? I forgot! HELP ) and little mei mei.. Lol.. you have no idea why I used the term little cow for my little nephew right? It’s because he’s rather naughty, he likes to break things which my aunt told me that my cousin brother used to be like that when he was young.. And little mei mei for my another little niece because she’s cute! It’s been months since I last saw her, last time her hair was short, but I think her mum decided to let it grow after all.. Her hair really does looks like the mushroom~ kawaii! .. A must have hairdo for my future daughter! wahahaha!
After awhile, my aunty finally fully prepared and we started our journey by taking public bus to customs.. It’s been awhile since I last took public transports which is months ago for my last trip on a bus in Singapore.. Guess I was lucky? -_- but I won’t be having the good days any longer after I’m in poly.. I’ve to take public transports everyday to attend classes soon, but I think I will get used to it because it’s for my future which I could have a better life and obviously better drive then now =)

You might not know this man, but he’s the cause of the jam in the customs.. This guy is non-other than Mas Selamat .. The fugitive – terrorist of Singapore.. It really would makes anyone mad if they’re rushing to cross border or when they were carrying a lot of things.. I’ve seen the “motor – jam“ which seems rather normal if you compared with the “human – jam”.. The atmosphere at the customs especially Malaysia’s is really hot! I’m sweating my head off even though I’m just there for around 20minutes.. I “queued up” for around 20minutes or so, but it seems the bus never came at all, under simple adding up method and subtraction I found that I would need to wait for 2 – 3 busses to passed before I could get myself in the “golden bus” .. After some observations, I found that quite an amount of people crossed the border by walk - over.. So we decided to walk – over too, it’s rather funny when I arrived at the Singapore’s customs the “golden bus” haven’t even reached yet.. Thanks to Mas Selamat, I had enjoyed the walk to Singapore customs and its view.. I hope he would be caught soon and this entire things end and Singapore would be return to normal *pray*..
After I passed the customs passport checking and stamping, I headed to the escalator and after I reached ground floor, I found that there’s another “human train”, its crazy… But, luckily, my blurriness has given me a lead to the queue, wicked~ but it’s unlucky for the people who queue for n – minutes.. At here, I plead your forgiveness ~ sorry people! Thanks for the boost I’ve boarded the first bus =)
After like around 10minutes, the bus head off to Marsiling MRT station, which I got off and took the MRT to Tiong Bahru MRT and another change of transport, bus No. 195 to the road opposite CHIJ St Theresa’s Convent.. And another walk like about 10 minutes which includes climbing staircases -_- … TIRED!!!! I’m carrying my Acer notebook which is like about approximately 3KG with me.. Not heavy, but.. After some journey -_- which is like around 3 hours+ you would know how I feel later..

To be Continue.....

Coffee TIme..

2008-03-22T05:22:00.000-07:00

Rainny day - 24'C, Neutral

I woke up today at around 1300, but I’m feeling rather tired instead of feeling lively.. don’t know why, these day after I woke up every time I felt more tired than ever… after I had finished wash up, I have to do the prayers thingy asked to do by my mum =_= … I can still remember that when I was young, I got burnt when the wind blew the prayers thingy onto my leg.. When I burning the prayer thingy, the day was windy.. So it’s giving me shiver..

After finish the prayer thingy, I took a bath and go out for my brunch as my stomach alerted me.. My stomach sounded like “ guuuuuu luuuuuuuuu guuuuu luuuuuu “ LoL… Today is mid of lunar calendar, and my mum is vegetarian for a day, so we go to the nearest vegetarian food shop…

After our meal, we decided to go to Jusco to make the order for my birthday cake.. Hehe, my birthday cake this year is from Secret Recipe, a 1.7Kg Tiramisu ~ it’s a little “huge” but well.. I’m sure I could finish it @_@
After I made the order, we got down to Starbucks for coffee.. I ordered a Green Tea Latte, Grande, I enjoyed it at the seat outside of the shop because it’s the only choice I had as the shop is full of people.. And there’s actually a downpour at that time but thanks for the coffee, I feel rather warm and full =)

After the coffee break, we continue to shop for foods in order to prepare spaghetti tomorrow.. We brought French recipe long bread at Delifrance for garlic bread tomorrow.. Then we go shopped for cooking oils, garlic, onions, canned mushroom soup, ham, cheese and etc.. After the long day, I finally reached home as my mum wanted to watch the 1900 show...

I'm dead tired...

2008-03-19T08:02:00.000-07:00

Half sunny, Half rainny day - 24'C, tired~

I slept at 02xx this morning, then got dragged up by my mum at around 07xx in the morning.. Soon after I finish wash up, I had my breakfast at the food stall near my house, which is rather disappointing because that noodle shop which is my favourite once again didn't open! T_T .. I have no choice but just to eat the chicken rice which I think I wanted to eat at that moment...

Around 0930 I started my journey, but before that I had my tyres pressure checked at the nearby petrol station. But before that my aunt called me, she thought I'm still rolling in my bed -_- .... Give me a break!
I picked my aunt up at her house soon after I done the checking.. Our destination? Pontian~ why? To find my small aunt who has a " huge " house there~ ( forgot to take the picture, will post it next time if I took the picture )..

The route to Pontian is.. .. 1 comment~ oh my god!.. God bless Malaysia.. It’s just like what my aunt said... driving on the road like this makes you felt like you're on the sea more than on the road.. Think of it, we're heading to a place which is supposed to be a fishing village right? So the government might think of giving us the pleasure of riding a boat on the sea first.. Brilliant ~

After some boat ridding moment, we finally arrive! I'm so glad that I didn't drive the Citra out.. That would really make me feel nausea if I do.. And the best thing is? I can't boast my car audio T_T... It just don't suit me, driving without listening to songs.. So then.. The next thing I think you've already guess, when 3 aunties gathered.. =_= ... " bla bla bla bla bla bla bla blah~! " after an hour or so.. Or perhaps longer, we go take our lunch at the shop near the sea side.. Their speciality is? Fish ball noodle! don't know why.. I got no idea what you guys and girls think, but I likes the food they serve... oh ya, after lunch.. They started to " bla bla bla bla bla bla blah !~ " again.. =_= .. and this time, I've been warped into their stories too.. sigh.. but seriously, if I do well in my studies.. I won't have to stand with this.. too bad, I didn't .. This would act as a reminder to me! I must work hard!

So, another hour passed by~ my mum decided that she wanted to go to Kukup.. A fishing village which I think should be the main sources of fishes for Pontian? and I'm so " happy ".. the road condition is exactly the same, giving us the pleasure of a boat ridding experience~ after half hour passed, we've finally arrive at Kukup.. At first we think of taking a boat ride, but I guessed after the " free trips " everyone felt nausea.. So we decided to take a walk in the fishing village which is supposed to be memories of my aunt and my mum..
LOL.. guessed what, you won't believe this, I've post 2 picture of houses in my photo album.. which I think it would change your views of ordinary fishing village that you think it should be~ whether it is or not to you, it does changed mine.. you wouldn't believe me if I tell you that there's semi-D like houses with balconies on the sea just beside the broken houses.. but you got to believe it, I have proofs! the historical entrance of the village didn't even give me any hints of having a semi-D likes houses in here.. Lol.. Seriously.. I fooled people with the photo I took, they think that the house is in the city.. wahahaha!!

At last we're back to Johor Bahru after another " boat ridding " .. Then my aunt suggest that we go to the Thai restaurant for dinner which sets inside a botanic garden.. Since it's still early, the shop haven't start its operation before another 30 or so minutes.. but the botanic garden is open for walk.. so we took a walk and I saw the plant I liked.. I think it should be in the Christmas tree family or so it's called the Yule Tree...
after the walk, the shop begun its operation at last, we've ordered 4 dishes which includes tom yam soup, egg plants, vegetable and 3 flavour fish.. I've asked the waitress to give me the pineapple fried rice instead of plain rice and of course! my favourite, cappuccino~ the whole meal is rather normal.. but the tom yam soup is so spicy! I think this might due to the sudden drop in chilli’s pricing.. the chef has been rather generous in adding up cut chillies in the soup T_T ..
After the dinner, I've settle down in my aunt house and watched some shows.. at that moment, my eyelids are near closed.. but before I'm completely doze off, my mum waked me and told me to get ready to go home~ AT LAST!

Oh ya... something annoys me when I'm driving today.. my car's wiper.. the squeaking sounds it makes me goes nuts! zzz...

Sunny Day Once Again, but Cloudy..

2008-03-17T22:05:00.000-07:00

Cloudy, Hot, 31'C, Neutral

hmm.. if you all saw the picture in my album you would be wondering, am I with her again? Well here's the answer, I'm certainly not.. but I admit I do wish her to be here though.. it's nothing special bout the pictures.. I just think that I should include her into my blog because she's the one whom I loved before and till now.. but I didn't put much hope in it though.. and in fact, this blog is here because of her too.. oh ya.. she got her new laptop lately.. I'm happy for her too.. she was sharing laptop with her brothers last time..

ok.. something funny happened yesterday.. here's the story, my mother ask me to wrote down the name of a guy who sounds like " 2 minutes ying " ( in mandarin ) so I just wrote that name down.. after all, it's bout 2 or 3 years that I never wrote in chinese already ( because now days mainly using english to wrote in anything ).. so that's the story how I gave that guy a new name as " 2 minutes ying " -.- ...

hmm.. my birthday is coming soon.. at current time it's 12 days and approximately 10 hours to go.. don't know what kind of feeling I have here, is it happy? nervous? hmm.. no idea.. I didn't bank in too much hope for a celebration, because there isn't any proper celebration for over 18 years after all..
haha.. don't need to feel sad, because I'm a simple person, so I'm fine with anything.. just hope that I would get some " happy birthday " wishes from the one I really hope to listen to...

oh ya.. I will begin doing my puzzle, and I will show the puzzle out come to you all after I've finish it..

Under the Hot Sun ..

2008-03-16T02:00:00.000-07:00

Sunny, Hot - 31'C, Moody

Just downloaded new songs, not actually new, but it's nice.. here's one of the song that I'm currently listening to.. you can find the other one in my playlist.. today it's so hot that I just feel like lying there and not moving.. sigh~ just kidding.. there's 1 more model and 2 more puzzle that I haven't even laid my hand on.. I will start on my model first then puzzle the other day.. hot hot hot~

oh yar.. you can view my finished model the murasame in my album too .. think it's the worst model I've made.. -.- ... at least 20% of that model broken.. but well it's look normal when it's in photograph..

anyway.. I had some weird weird dreams these days.. maybe that's because I slept long hours? hmm.. weird weird..

Taylor Swift - Tears drops on my Guitar

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's just so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see

A song that I'm listening now..

2008-03-13T03:14:00.001-07:00

Hillary Duff's - Someone's Watching Over Me

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me

Someone's watching over me

I'm lost..

2008-03-12T23:47:00.000-07:00

Rainy day.. Helpless..

I got no idea what happened yesterday, as I'm not the one who were in any part of this situation.. at least not yesterday.. It reminds me of 3 years ago, when she broke up with me.. and she cried too.. I'm really so helpless, that I couldn't do anything but just to stand there and let her cried, I admit that I was the biggest fool to let her go at that point.. because the words of the girl in the situation last night make me realize that it's true that if you don't want to lose someone, things you need to do is just to get a strong grip on her.. but at that point, I do not have any of the courage to do so..

well... no point to think of it now.. it just won't make me go anywhere, but to feel more helpless..

what makes me feel bad is that, a girl cried right in front of me.. and I, once again can't do anything or at least make any words of comfort to her.. and actually I felt like crying too.. how helpless was I?.. sigh..

I was racing to get back to my home.. I'm already feeling sleepy when I'm driving.. if there was any speed trap.. I think by now I would get at least 10 summons.. yet, when I reached I couldn't sleep.. I sent an e-mail to the girl and chatted with her awhile then I went to bed...

.. roll and roll and roll.. don't know why.. I just couldn't fall asleep even though I tried my hardest to do so.. at least .. rolled for hours on my bed.. it was cold, a very cold night.. make me think of her more.. and .. at last.. even when I felt asleep I dream of her too.. is she really that overwhelming? .. I don't really know.. maybe the caffeine reacted on me, as I drank my coffee without any condiments yesterday.. the coffee taste incredibly bitter.. even though I used to drink my coffee that way.. ...

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2007-12-07T10:19:00.000-08:00

I'm a big time loser who never done anything for anyone even myself... I'm an idiot who are selfish... I dont know why people like me would even be born... ... but I'm not the only one.. I wish there's no one like me in this world and there would definitely be peace... I'm now heading toward a road that is narrower than before.. and its going to end.. everything going to end.. there's nothing can be done.. I'm so helpless... ...

Disconnected...

2007-10-07T02:14:00.000-07:00

been disconnected for days... that is of course... my choice, I've choose to disconnect myself... didn't online, didn't care my phone or whatever that's going on... just know I've got to finish the work I left for months... just know I would finish my book... at last... 2 month and 11 days... I've finish the whole series... the story are utmost revolving.. and of course.. it turn out to be one of the great series that I've had ever read... Harry Potter... now I can do the stinking job I've been given... that is to write reviews about 10 books.... I've been playing piano lately... and I think I've had improved a little bit ... can't wait till the day I take up the piano lesson... ... until then... life must go on... there's exam after 28 days... I've to practice now.. if not I would end up crying my head off... ......

Annoying Thursday

2007-10-04T04:08:00.000-07:00

What an annoying day I have landed in today… my work.. hasn’t even touched yet… still someone was calling me from the college… which I didn’t want to entertain… keep calling… how annoying… and people who muttering and mumbling all over the peacefully afternoon that I’ve used to read Harry Potter… I was trying to get into the books as I know it would most probably improve my English… as it has done … I had little grammar mistakes these day as I went through the book… and the most celebrated things are… I didn’t touch the computer which would link me to games.. which I didn’t intend to be in there right now… yes… you’ve heard me right.. not now, when the exams are crossing nearer and nearer to me… I’ve really got to study at full pace… and well … I got something interesting when I checked my PDA… Guess what’ve I got in it… a message that tell me there was a topic test for accounting today… it’s so nice to hear that… how impressive… didn’t think of it also… …… anyway, ought to finish the book before I started off my work again……… and I've got myself a truly brilliant internet service too which ban me from most of the websites... ..... how cool is that.. I've been trying to log in to my blog for hours before I could got in... and not to mention my messenger too, exactly a lovely day.....

Whatever Day

2007-10-04T04:03:00.000-07:00

At last.. I’ve buy myself some time to do some of my unattended assignments… Actually.. it’s just part of it.. but at least it’s better than nothing.. at least there’s some progresses… keep up the good work… … I felt like an idiot that… I miss out the suit in Singapore which I had to go to Vivo City once again to find the suit which I don’t really know where is it.. due to the size of the mall or complex.. whichever is larger… I haven’t started my study yet.. I spent most of the time loitering around and doing nothing.. isn’t it stupid?.. thought so… ….. and my weight.. don’t really think it got change even a little bit… … and my hunger are getting more and more ……. I do not reckon until when I would last…. …. There’s only 29 days to go… study and weight losing.. Together hand in hand… ………. What a nice timing… I should have pictured this early.. well then .. I didn’t do anything for it.. and now what left with me are merely just tense…

Dreadful...

2007-10-01T07:32:00.000-07:00

I’ve through the dreadful days… and once again broke… given the situation worst that… my assignment yet to be done and the external exam nearer and nearer by days… I’ve got to do something about this fast.. or suffer.. ok.. this thought has come to me months ago.. but I didn’t do anything for it.. I think I deserve to receive what would come next.. the bad news.. don’t reckon what I would have to do.. other than just study and study .. and no more than study… … ok, I know this story sounds dull even to myself… but .. sadly.. the history are repeating it’s self.. no mere changes.. got nothing much to tell… just normal and dreadful day same as always.. didn’t do much to improve myself.. just reading Harry Potter and The Order of The Phoenix… …

Music...

2007-09-28T09:14:00.001-07:00

I'm moody when I woke up this noon... I rest my self down on the piano bench and lay my fingers on the piano for hours... I don't know what motivates me to play the piano which I think it isn't suit me at all before.. but I'm playing it for hours now.. should I really take up the class? .. or should I not... I don't know... but .. really.. I think I love it.. playing the music I love...

don't know what drive me up... I just press the pedal and out of the house.. to Mc Donald... I brought the fish foldover meal and I got 6 pieces Mc Nugget for free... love it... ... really... loving it... and now.. I'm watching Pirates of The Caribbean... left 30 days to lose weight now...

Frustrated....

2007-09-27T08:36:00.000-07:00

I don't know about others .. but.. if you're asked to drive to somewhere where you're totally have no idea where is it... and keep turning into the same point... and the reason for you to reach there are nothing more than time wasting .. I'm very frustrated out of this .. but after this.. at last.. I reach there too... the view at that area are quite unexpected.. the place which is quite rural .. or village... but then .. suddenly .. come to a point where people gathering around.. there's many shop lot on both side of the road... ...

music.. do I really have what it takes to learn it? master it? ... don't know.. I will have to try my best... what I know is.. it does release tense better than others...

Violet..

2007-09-26T09:28:00.000-07:00

The flower of which could be seen through the windows.. don't really know what I'm trying to tell.. just .. ... trying to say something.. as I felt the loneliness much these days... the violet colored flower bed which I could see... but can't reach... its very nice to see.. but .. it's out of my reach... ... just like... things that are near to me now... why would I have such a bad luck.. ..... or rather.. normal? don't know what is it... or how to describe it too... I felt like leaving here for good, but I didn't do anything for progress didn't I?.. dream on if I'm behaving like this... ....

It's Long Enough.....

2007-09-26T08:54:00.001-07:00

It's been awhile since I step foot in this my diary... thought I would abandoned it myself.. but I didn't .. not the time yet until my last breath... that's what I thought.. I need this diary as long as I'm alive.. everything that I've wanted to say.. everything I feel will be in here...

I've get rid of maple story from my laptop already.. what I wanted to do now is merely studying.. I just want to buried my head in my desk.. I need to work hard now.. and perhaps.. starting my music lesson too.. music really does.. help me in releasing tense better than playing maple which is not really a good thing too.. cause it hurt my eyes and wasting my money.. ..

......

2007-09-22T23:12:00.000-07:00

I had my darkest day ever .. not that dark yet .. at least.. I still have Jivesh who's playing all kind of jokes over all the time... I don't really know what kind of EMERGENCY people don't understand... this is really the stupiest thing I've done... .. I don't know... these days on.. no more game... I just want to study.. whatever happen, I just want to.. I had to.. even if I have to collapse infront of the books.. I don't care.. .. I'm really an idiot.. and if not because of I'm having a serious problem in cash.. nothing like this will ever happen... .. luckily, Jivesh's mother help me.. if not I really don't know what should I do... I'm running low in everything.. this is the first time I felt threatening.. the lost of hope.. not really the first time though.. but then.. this is the first time I felt that money is everything... that's the fact.. in this world.. nothing could take away the value of a piece of paper... where we recognise it as money... .. this is really stupid.. I will earn as much as I could.. to show them... .. and I would donate part of it to charity too under annonymous, that's the best part of having money.. not keeping it all to yourself.. but to help those inability which could meant life saving.. as I don't believe in god.. ...

I really felt sad .. as Jedidiah left ... still I'm having some ridiculous problem of losing the autopass card... aU rEvoir, my friend.. .. I will miss you.. .. I've already set of studying hard before that.. and now I felt the threat of applying it ... ...

Another Day....

2007-09-16T08:10:00.000-07:00

sigh... I'm so over did it....I’ve done it again.. didn’t up to my plan… played for hours … didn’t really give me much pleasure though… just added up some degree to my eye.. that’s for sure… it will be next week before I touch maple story now…… there’s still exam around… reckon I might get some fun after exam.. if I’m in luck… maybe… sigh… don’t know that… but then I do hope for .. aw……. Not that prepared for anything like that now.. I’m quite clean in terms of money… not spending any more on maple story… I rather buy some food… … or maybe not.. oh yeah…. I’ve planned to go Manhattan Fish Market this week…. Maybe there would be some delay… … depends…

got to start studying anytime now.. ...

Idiot of The Year......

2007-09-16T08:09:00.000-07:00

don't know why... after all these things happen... I'm still drowning inside the game world... is it really that those game are rather attractive? I thought so... but what it takes to do the trick is only just determination... I still remember that about half year ago I really did put it at a stop...

but as what I'm sure is that... this is still control able... ... I would probably spend a little time on it... as I'm stressing now... .. not that often though... anyway.. things are just started to get interesting... I just had my luck on most of the time I think... though still.. the game character did reflect some of me.. not really that surprising as we control the game rather than it control us... still I'm a big spender inside... hope I won't be like that in the real world... and I've much bravery in it... too think of I really would take the risk... I just wish I got much of those in the real world...

eye getting blurer ... misses you a little bit... and... by the way... I shall start working off... and relax a little bit too at the same time... by just 5% per day though... and of course work not done, no relax... and have to really work hard on dietting too...

I just tried the new fish fold over in McDonald... and it's so nice... but then, Singapore's beef fold over are still the best....

Maple........

2007-09-16T08:05:00.000-07:00

don't really know what got into me... am I just gone mad or what?.. been to Italiannese as what I've been thinking the whole morning... later then I ordered a cup of coffee as usual.. or should I say a glass of coffee... and I've braced down myself at last after some hard thinking and ordered a dish of salmon, spinach and wedges which turn out to be delighting me.. but this time, there's a little bit extra... the salt has come in bundle with the dishes.. and you can guess now that's its a little bit salty than usual which causes a little bit of disappointment.. think my next lunch would be at Manhattan Fish Market... and yeah... today's bill can let me have two meals in Sizzling Stonegrill for sure... but then I don't really care its probably because I really don't know what to spend on others than food... ... or maybe I does know... think I'm mad... in just 1 afternoon... I spend all of my saving in gachapon... indeed.. you didn't heard me wrong.. just 1 noon... or maybe just minute if you do want an accurate number... but then its not really a big deal.. as I only had 200 in my account.. don't really know why some people would really relate me with rich.... oh yeah, and before that.. I'm thinking hard how to save money while I'm driving... funny isn't it?...... .. but then.. what I know is that I really does stress out... .. I need places to release it.. these madness... but I do think I overdid it... I will on a strict budget now.. but really to tell.. if I'm determined nothing could stop me... this is Aries traits.... but then I won't really trying to ditch up my lunch in Manhattan Fish Market either.. as that's my treat after hard working .. wish you could come though.. having lunch alone doesn't really favor me... although I've been like that for ages... but that's the main point... I dislike being lonely... in fact, I hate it.. .... I will be studying hard starting off tomorrow.. strictly no maple,
no msn, no PS2.. or maybe no tv too...

.. will be lonely for the next few week.... .... home alone again.. less smoke, less noice, less nagging... but tomorrow too.. comparably more loneliness... when will you come to me? or I go to you... at least give me some hint... I've no idea what to do... totally confused..... I know I would have the courage... at least I'd think so... but I'm afraid at the same time.. will it turn out to be just myself thinking too much?... I dare not to think.. .... .. * I need you, could you heard me?..... *

Sleepy day...

2007-09-13T07:25:00.000-07:00

Finished Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire in a really dizzy mode in the morning, around 0300… of course at the next minute I started off Harry Potter and The Order of The Phoenix.. about 10 minute later.. really can’t stand already.. just lay down on my bed.. and … journeyed into dreamland without I realizing it.. awake in the evening later… around 1400… really, really… for what I think.. this is really time wasting… the time past by fast everyday and nothing can be done that would recover the time I’ve lost and the day and time I’ve spend all goes into bad thing… don’t know why… today.. suddenly, hand felt itchy… turned on my PS2 and then played final fantasy X-2.. later on.. played a little bit of maple story… … for what I reckon… now really isn’t a good time to do those.. and .. it won’t do me any good to do it later too.. … I really need to get hold on the book and burry my head on the desk… .. but did I?.. I didn’t… I should… … soon.... there will be a paper for economics tomorrow.. I think I will sleep early today and have some last minute read on.. … I can’t give up now.. not at this very moment.. and not later too.. something has been bothering me lately.. but.. it’s not really a great deal… I have many things in my mind that are worth more than that.. but then.. .. why should I act like that… … is it.. really that important? .. …..

What have I done...

2007-09-12T06:51:00.000-07:00

don't know what really happen these day.. I'm a freak.. ..... don't know what I'm doing.. didn't really attempt the mathematics question at my full heart.. .. I'm not myself.. ...

saw her at courtyard.. and this time.. I did walk up to her.. but then.. felt weird... really weird.. .. think there won't be any chance already.. ..

my head really really heavy.. ....

Confession..

2007-09-11T06:39:00.000-07:00

What a endless day I have today… felt like it’s so long…. When I’m there in the college, I’m right on time.. but because of forgetting to bring a slip.. then got lectured by Abi.. she told me that I’m lack of discipline and … ….. faint.. .. when I’m tempting the continuous writing section, the first thought I’ve was.. ….. ok.. it’s really a bad omen… think I really had it this time.. … should have read more… … now that.. it’s too late.. or not too late.. still have 1 month though… .. or not…. Have to work now… that's the thing I'm trying to convince myself with... work work work... but did I? .. I remember that I did say after I brought the PDA.. I would be more initiative.. more productive...... .. but I didn't... ....

Don’t really know what’s into me lately… .. think I’m obsessed.. whatever I’ve done.. didn’t really have any meaning… … I saw her three time today.. but then… don’t really have the courage to approach her.. is it that I don’t have much courage..? or … just.. don’t know what to say… and I didn't even dare to make eye contact with her too... is that I'm really scared?... .... confused..
Don’t know why.. suddenly so into baking.. … but then the “cake” didn’t turn out like what I’ve think it is.. now I know that really.. a good cake really does worth to pay for one.. actually.. early already know that.. but really.. I only pay for those nice food.. … am I too picky? .. think so… that’s me.. ……………
And if you ask me.. I think I’ve made a bread rather than a cake…maybe it is a bread cake… I shall name it bread cake.. hmm…. The third bread cake I baked are much more better than those before.. at least I did improve.. and by the way.. the first thought I've with the 2nd "cake" are.. those I imagined that made by Hagrid the half giant.. ...

The Baking...

2007-09-10T07:55:00.000-07:00

Woo.. finally, got the “cake” baked.. don’t know whether it’s qualify as cake.. the self raise flour not really working.. think that’s because of I added some wheat flour in… or maybe the mixture are quite liquidized due to high amount of blended fruits.. or… is it because of when halfway, the oven suddenly stop functioning.. but really.. the “cake” smell nice.. and I suppose it taste so too… cause I ate 3 pieces in 1 go.. anyway, don’t think I really passed the baking test if I’m taking one.. I’ll have to figure out how to make the mixture rise.. there’s a tart too.. pumpkin tart.. which really not that nice.. if you’d ask me to grade it.. I would say.. 2 out of 10..

* You don't mind a little hard work when you know the payoff is worth it and today you can see that it is. Whatever feels right to you should be much easier to put your shoulder behind for the last big push. *

Is it? Think so.. hmm.. these horoscope thingy really kind of freaky.. quite true… part of it.. or maybe it’s because of that I’m believed in it.. anyway, this would be an indicator for me to fast forward.. believe is one of the tool that are to be utilize at its full limit, not to set aside.. that’s what I believe..

* You are most likely thinking seriously about your health right now, thanks to news from a friend or family member or just a gentle reminder of its importance. Do something positive for yourself! *

This is really.. oh my good oh heaven… I really do think so… and I really am in a strict diet.. or at least that’s what I think… I’m trying now… hope I’m not that late… I don’t want any of those severe health problem and to be on medicine.. ..

4 Days Didn't Blog..

2007-09-09T08:35:00.000-07:00

My bad, it’s four days ago since my last blog.. this is the very first time I drive to my aunt’s house that’s located in Telok Blangah Cresent, Singapore.. that is after some turning in Woodlands and then ended up near Jurong East, and Bukit Batok then only I’ve discovered my way back to the real route… and after that… that’s the start of the why… I was obsessed with my new HTC 3600i PDA that I brought from Sim Lim Square/Funan Digital Life Mall, Rochor Road, Bugis, Singapore. It’s what I would called.. oh my good oh heaven.. it’s nice.. the pda.. have so much function.. makes me think of the poor old nokia 9200 which now I didn’t know what should I do with it… I was rushing when I brought that so called ‘smart phone’.. and this one compared to Jiv’s of course this would run at a faster pace like 180miles/hour on the road… maybe 200miles/hour…. Can’t really too happy about it.. because I know this thing would be outdated at a rather fast pace too… and then I’m rather put off by the software of the PDA.. the software support are really little… you’ve to buy your own every other things that you needed…. Luckily I don’t really need that Chinese support.. if not I would be crying now… back to the blog, as I was saying… I’m obsessed with it.. that’s why I didn’t blog for these days.. what a bad habit.. but I’m happy to announce that I’m already cut it out.. or surpassed my obsession.. a big clap to myself… exactly a happy thing to tell… for a second there, I really think I’m loved.. the things I wanted.. would just ‘pop out’ or rather granted.. just like,, the PDA.. although it came a little bit late.. but I did own one.. or two if you ever counted that far worst Nokia 9200… really.. Nokia make a good phone.. but not PDA… or .. I’m not sure.. the new N-Series are quite tempting.. maybe my next phone would be one of those.. In that very day (the next day after I brought the PDA) I got to City Square Kim Gary Bistro, after a little bit of rushing to the bank.. and I reached the bank 3 minutes before closing.. how cool is that?.. about the food place.. it’s got a really wide variety of foods to choose from.. and the food are really nice… it’s really a pity that it didn’t open a franchise in Tebrau City… and after that.. gone to Singapore again.. this time it’s partly because of I need the SD card so badly and about the PDA shop guy mentioned to me that ‘maybe’ I can have a tax refund on the PDA which are quite a lot.. but then it turn out that I can’t have any refund unless I’m travelling by plane.. how lame is that… later on, I try to find my way to Woodlands Causeway Point and luckily I didn’t lost my way this time.. I’ve brought back the shopping’s that I’ve done and of course topping up some weight to my car… and I’ve got an extra lovely cup to add into my cup collection and the mini SD card.. .. the next day, I’ve been to Tebrau City and having lunch in Sizzling Stone Grill at last.. it’s not really that little variety as you’ve seen…. That prove Jiv’s wrong about it… the food are too .. nice.. and I think the word nice are not really sufficient to describe it .. it’s like cook your own food.. and it’s really kind of cool too to dine in such environment.. but it’s quite hot when the food first arrive.. and it would be a little bit clumsy too… so if I had a girl to date, that wouldn’t be my first choice.. it would be after the first date.. Italiannese of course are my first choice for the first date.. later then, I got myself the GPS software which really bother me much that what about a GPS hardware enabled system doesn’t have a software which trigger it….. sigh….. got it at a rather high price.. and I’m kind of broke now.. never mind that, at least it’s mid of the month already and I don’t think I would be going to dine at anywhere because I’m on a strict diet.. unless necessary and I would be choosing my meal carefully too.. because after what I saw at Fitness Concept Stall… that’s terrifying… I got an extra 5% fat.. and… these day I felt really weird about my body… it’s not really good… … oh yeah.. why do I say so about being loved.. because I told my mum I need an oven for baking.. then she’d give me an oven.. a brand new.. although it’s not really a great thing.. but I’m pleased with it.. and if you wonder why I need an oven? Really.. I’m quite eager to learn baking or try baking long time ago.. just because of something that happened three years ago…. Then gave up.. even myself.. but now I’m back.. so tomorrow would be my baking time… and of course if you’re wondering whether I’ve got my need list done? I’ve got it all and it’s ready to go.. I just need to follow instruction on the recipe book then everything is fine.. or I hope so at least.. at least it’s not over – baked..

Sleepy...

2007-09-05T16:41:00.000-07:00

What a sleepy day.. didn’t really sleep well yesterday.. so.. ended up really sleepy in college.. didn’t pay much attention to the lesson at all.. worst is that I didn’t pay much attention in economics class either… missed 2 class… ESL and Mathematics.. I’m really lousy… missed 2 class, but the work still uncompleted.. the database model that I suppose to draw still not yet finished.. I’m wasting my time.. … why I have to behave like this? .. …. I’m an idiot..

'Happy Day'

2007-09-04T07:46:00.000-07:00

How rather amusing that I found that most of Harry Potter in the movie are merely made up by the director… that doesn’t really surprise me because a book that thick really are time consuming when presented as movie.. but it’s quiet annoying when I found out that most of the story are rather twisted.. because it’s really a nice book wrote by J.K. Rowling.. still.. amusing.. the show add up something Joanne didn’t wrote in, and it’s nice.. well not all, but at least there some part I do like..
Well.. woke up quite late today and end up rushing my accounting assignment to hand it in later.. well.. It seems that the thing that Mr. Lee said easy was.. really, rather time consuming.. or I’m really weak.. ok.. I admit, I’d think of start working.. but I didn’t start at all.. ow.. what’ve gone into me? Don’t reckon there’s anything other than my own self.. but then.. this mean that there must be something to be taken out right? Draw out the bad in me.. maybe I’d curse it away if I did have a wand with me.. but I didn’t did I? .. thus, I got to try to concentrate very hard.. really hard.. amazingly.. nothing but hard work.. hope this time really work.. I won’t be attending Kow’s class anymore.. instead.. I would be spending more time to work out my assignments… and of course study.. trial are just around the corner.. ‘Happy Day’ isn’t it? … what a right timing.. what a best timing that I’ve done it.. my lord heaven…… wake up would I? .. why am I still sleeping? …
saw Shin Yun today.. spotted her walk over courtyard and came right in front of Jiv and me.. and then say hi… … well done.. I’ve been visited by shaky leg and tongue tight ..
visited library later and wasted time in it.. time past by just like that.. nice job.. ….
then… gone to the canteen for some snack.. rather heavy snack I would say.. had 1 plain roti prata.. and rojak.. not really that delightful as what Jiv told me.. the prata was quite salty.. I doesn’t had any prata that salty at this.. does prata need salt? Hmm.. maybe it does to prevent it stick to the pot.. but then.. does it really necessarily need that much salt?.. well then.. the rojak was okay.. at least it’s tons better than what I had the last time…
Today is ning's birthday.. she didn't really talk to me much... well.. don't think we have that much topic either.. think that letter was the only way that we can really communicate.. it's quite worth it already that she'd even mail me.. as long as I can talk to her.. I'm satisfied.. don't really need her to tell me that we don't have any chance.. I know it.. just... I'd love to talk to her.. that's all... nothing much than that..
hmm.. shall I extend........ don't know.. better not.. have to be done in slow motion.. and prudent this time.... it's really bad enough to have my old record... ... I don't want it sums up again.. though.. I really did miss someone... hope she know.. or maybe not.. later it turns out to be rather annoying.. .... but then.. if .... urgh... there's no IF now.. study..... forget it..
Happy Birthday ning..

Bad Day..

2007-09-03T06:50:00.001-07:00

Finally.. after some long wait.. and those stupid heaven idiotic didn’t even notify me when the land line already established here… luckily I did ask my mum to go for some complaining and found it out… and running through some forms and wasted up some time only get the service today… it isn’t that brilliant at all.. but what’d you expect out of here? They have reached their limit… whatever.. after leaving this place, I wouldn’t have to bother this anymore.. and it’s very funny.. the man who suppose to be ‘installer’ got himself confused of his work… I’ve set up my wireless router within 5 minute before he came, just that the account didn’t activate yet.. therefore I can’t do anything about it.. but he took an hour sitting there thinking of what to do… I don’t really know should I have a good laugh about it or angry about those wasted time… I would have tons of better service as what Jiv told me… pif.. really funny.. that I would really bother to use Microsoft Word to write my blog before I post it.. seriously… what I thought the first thing when I started off my blog was .. to wrote out everything that I didn’t really have chance to tell or rather what I would want to say.. or spill it out… and then I too love too improve my English very much… that’s what makes me into this.. hope there’s no more grammar mistake this time…
Been to Vivo today, having lunch with Jiv.. I’ve ordered Ceasar salad.. it was not what I’ve imagined.. they grade it with cheddar.. which make the salad really fattening… I’ve thought of having the salad because I was on diet… but then… it turn out that I’ve gain more weight before I walk in there.. after that.. picked up my spectacle… before that.. I went to TGV snack bar to get the Ratatoullie water cup… but ended up with disappointment.. sad… I should get it early.. sad..
Oh…… there’s the funny presentation too.. I was suppose to be ‘Ah Beng’.. but ended up with a deep laugh when Allen spring his way up… fainted… this was the lousiest presentation I’ve ever had.. didn’t even prepare.. just read it out loud.. and I’m very blur of what I’ve do to… I’ve got to hand in my accounting assignment by tomorrow.. but then, I didn’t even touch 1 yet.. I reckon that I’d have to woke up in 0500 and then work out everything..
Found Ms. Abi in the office today… before that I’ve run into Kow too… been nagged by her for half an hour.. been talking about Kow… last time she told me that I could have study leave.. but then now she said it would be rather hard and ask me to stay and attend his classes… ……… she’s trying to kill me off with his classes.. this drove me crazy.. thinking of the last four tense and hectic weeks with him… nagging all the way… whatever.. I may have to do something before I got into this… I have to study myself rather than stay on with this nonsense.. I reckon that I might flaunt under his teachings.. ….. he’s the worst mathematics teacher I ever had..

Wolf Blass 'Black Label' 2003

2007-09-02T05:02:00.000-07:00

As I gulp down the wine after some bad dinner.. I found myself in paradise.. although the taste of the wine are kind of bitter.... but for me.. I always love the bitterness and the strong scent of the wine... omg... so nice.... love it.. It's completely different taste with when with ice and without... the taste are definitely stronger when it's pure.. after slotting in some ice cube.. the taste are slightly diluted.. but that's what I wanted.. nice but not that strong.. I enjoy the moment of being covered by wine.. the wine has deeply taken me.. but seriously.. I'm not drunk.. if not I wont be here writing my blog.. can felt my face are slightly pink now.. the name of the wine are quite long.. or rather.. it's the produce place.. "Wolf Blass 'Black Label' langhorne creek, barossa valley, coonawarra, cabernet sauvignon shiraz malbec 2003"... brought it from Australia duty free... have quite a lot problem before I really did get the wine... they've messed up my order by giving me a perfume instead of the wine that I brought.. and later then I've chosen this rather than the old wine... and it turn out to be very very nice... bless you... spend the whole day driving long in that old car... pif.. I don't enjoy driving in that car long time ago... ..... at last.. have a snack before that terrible dinner.. yes.. you got it.. it's Mc Donald... I've had a fillet o' fish with added BBQ sauce... fattening huh? ... bless you...... this would be quite long before I really touch Mc Donald again... sad.. but then that's have to go.. I'm really looking forward to go to Italiannese and have those nicely done salad again... I reckon that would be this Thursday... cheers.... nice wine.. had the last drop right after I stop....

Annoyance...

2007-09-01T04:36:00.000-07:00

accidentally pick up something again as I went through someone blog.. I'm an annoyance to her... ... pif.. I thought she's available for chat though... as I'd hope too... but then... ........ for scream out loud.... If you really think I'm annoying.. then you really have the rights to call me off... I don't mind... .... well now.. should I just told her rather than just talking to myself in here... kind of weird... as if she would come and read it... pif.... never mind I would tell her right away when she's online next time... I don't like being that way.. even though I'm lonely.. I still doesn't like to bug people... but then... it seems to me... that's quite automatically already.. bugging people....... ....... damn you.... damn me..... hate being annoyance.. hate being annoying... hate myself... ... what have I achieve after this long? nothing at all... not at all.. not even one... I should have condemn myself right away for being such an useless person... firstly, I thought of losing weight... but then after months and months.. not even 1 pound loss.. but there's much more attached to me now... what the hell.... dude.... I've lost weight 1 year ago... and I can't even sustain my weight... is it that I've more money to spend now or I'm just pure lonely.. that I thought of that food really can fill up my loneliness..? ... don't know.. don't ask.. ....... a healthy diet is what I seriously needed... ... shouldn't my body feel full? .. I didn't even work much.... in fact, that I didn't even move much at all.. and what I've been doing is pure sleeping..... ... not a work done at all... not even one... I hate it... ... my shirt doesn't even fit now... and definitely if these goes on.. I won't be attending the prom night.. well then.. I won't get a chance with the girl ... no way even if I'm at my ideal weight of 58.. the fact is.. I can't have any nice dress to wear too... ... I'm definitely not fancy about it.. being partner less already worst enough... still I'm wearing such a lousy dress while everyone wearing fancy... ....
Just got some breakfast bar.. really on strict diet this time.. no fool... and better still... strict study too... don't think I would online for long.. or should I say.. I would online for long but there won't be reply... reckon there would be many people have fun when I'm busy... ... have a nice day..

Independence Day..

2007-08-31T06:04:00.001-07:00

hmm.. what about it? there's nothing special I think... for what I think is, that's the last thing on my list that would really matters and makes me happy.. or shall I say.. never.. I was hoping to move out of this place fast.. I won't be coming back no matter what..... what a day... I just slept over the whole morning and woke up at noon.. nothing much to do... so just slept... days are as usual..... boredom.. have a little chat with Janet... found out that Lippy breakup with his girlfriend.. what a bad day for him.. wish that he would be better off with his next crush.. or maybe together again with her... hmm .. he told me that he would want to be more mature.. is it good? not sure... me myself thought that I'm not that mature too... I think it's quite true... although I can think... I think I can... at least my brain can function.. but then... I didn't really do anything after thinking of what to do later... ..... anyway.. at least half of the assignment are done today... and I've borrowed Lippy's as sample for the third assignment... pif... the third seems like really hard... and there's accounting assignment.. which really have to complete before this Monday... pif... oh yeah, I've forgot that I've finished Harry Potter and The Prisoner of Azkaban and the journey of The Goblet of Fire has begun....

Lanyard and Italiannese...

2007-08-30T07:11:00.000-07:00

Been to Aeon Tebrau City alone today, it's been ages since I've step foot in it alone.. most of the time I go there with Jiv.. well I have my reason to go there alone today... can't wait to deliver the letter.. It's her birthday next week, hope the letter will arrive in time... and the second thing is... buying lanyard for my thumb drive... the first shop I went are selling lanyard with jewelery in it.. I've no interest on one of those.. unless... but then now I don't have so.. I've muttered thank you to the shop assistant and walk back out... then I think of Harris.. I did remember this bookshop selling some lanyard... for me it looks plain, but that is what I've wanted... and of course I've brought it.. pif.. after that.. I've been thinking hard of what to eat... actually I've been thinking of going into Sizzling Stone Grill.. but then it seems to me it's very weird to dine alone because it's kind of crowded and I didn't see any one dine alone in there... ... so I drop the thought of stepping in.. I've been really looking forward to dine in there every since the shop under construction... sad.. still can't find anyone who can dine with me... always end up taking some bad food lately... at last.. after thinking hard... I've step into Italiannese.. the shop I'm visiting every week last time that is after my first visit that have capture my heart fully... most of the food there are quite nice for me.... just the size are quite big.. because it's meant for sharing actually rather than dine alone... well... I still can manage... it's not really that much after all... I've ordered New York Cheesecake and Mista salad... actually what I've ordered was.. Sicilian chicken salad... but that's not really the problem.. as the salad at Italiannese are quite nice... so no fuss.. I've no intention of changing it after all... at first I've though that I won't be able to finish the salad after the cheesecake.. the cheesecake really too nice... omg.. serve with strawberry and cheese gravy... oh my good oh heaven........ what a mouth savory meal... and the salad.. I've end up loving it more... maybe I shall pay a visit again... but then, it's rather weird that the waiter and waitress there gave me a glance by the time I walk in there.. maybe they think I couldn't pay for it... pif... I really looks that childish? ....rather piss... but then I can't really resist the meal experience I had in the past... I've go there with Jedidiah too... that's quite memorable... and we've study for our test there too... there's nice decoration and tidy inside... but the table cloth aren't really nice looking... it's made of plastic material rather than cloth.. if they use cloth instead I bet that it would really made a difference... as in Italian dining table mostly use cloth... anyway.. me myself quite shock that the first look of the cheesecake doesn't really looks much.. but by the time I help myself finish it up slowly.. I found it's rather filling... I thought that I couldn't finish my salad.. which later make me feel terrible... but after every helping.. I'm hunger for more... I need more... because it's really good... good oh heaven.... can't really describe the food with words... if you want to know.. why don't you go try it yourself.. hope my next trip will be a pleasant one and it's with the one I love... to share the food and the moment.. nearly forgot... that the Iced mocha too are what you've got to try... anyway.. you won't be too pleasant with the price and tag though... but then enjoy...

" Everyday "

2007-08-29T06:16:00.000-07:00

the song 'Everyday' really nice.. I really love it.. although I've got the song before the show... but after the show only I've love this song deeply.. the song with the scene... omg.. It's so nice... I will enclose the song here.. hope you'd like it.. I hope that one day I would found you too... just like Troy found Gabriella ... hmm .. think is they found both others.. .. have been a really bad day... and have been a really bad boy.. instead of going to classes have been hiding in my bed.. but I didn't dream of something... hmm.. maybe that's the point when I have more time, there won't be any dream... rather weird.. anyway.. didn't have any good dream yet since you left.. .. didn't do anything or flipped any book except .. Harry Potter ... trials are coming nearer than ever.. I should have prepare my math formula, try to remember accounting rules, read on economics, finish up whatever remain of the assignments by now.. but I haven't do any yet... ....... there's 12 more days, before trials arrive.. I think that I really don't have any time left to think about anything else now... I would have to utilize all my time... too many work undone.. though.. I'd really hope... ... heaven know when... don't know what my emotion should be now? .. there's confusion, complexion, blurry, cloudy, rainy.... why those all rather bad thing would occur on me.. why didn't I have any of confidence.... not a good day at all... pif...

High School Musical 2

2007-08-28T09:00:00.000-07:00

At last, finally high school musical 2 has completely downloaded... been making copy for Janet.. not so comfortable to make her wait so long... since I told her that she'd get it by Monday... But today already Tuesday.. by tomorrow it would be Wednesday.. pif... don't know what she would think... maybe she think I've fooled her.. or whatever... well then... today's a totally bad day... I've had my eye checked.. and my degree has been increased.. by a lot... and then... it was really a big mistake that I'd go into that shop... I'd know there would charge a lot than others... but I'm still stupid enough to walk in it... pif... and now I'm facing some financial problem... I have to go on budget now... and now forgetting, today lunch was.. omg.. rubbish.. so yucks.. what the.. never taken in such thing at all in my whole life... although I've ate some bad food which compare to my lunch is obviously better... I swear that I would never go there again... I'd really hope that I would get some nice food... ... but dining alone.. this idea doesn't really fancy me at all... although I did go to Italianese by my own last time for lunch.. but then it was totally different.. well.. finally got a chance to talk to Shin Yun online.. but then it was a short 1.. hmm.. anyway.. nice to meet you? .... I'm quite confused.. what should I go for? what am I doing now?... there's still 2 more assignment to go... and I barely touch... should I remind myself that.. that's 5 point on total ? ... I've lose enough point that I wouldn't really love to lose anymore... .. but then.. I'm so lonely.. ... what am I been thinking? really..... heaven know.. I really need to get the hell out of this place... I'm suffering .. but if I don't now... it would be much more coming right after this.. things and action are to be taken to get loose.. I've to grab tight on my one and only flight to freedom.. and probably.. would met a girl at last on the trip to paradise.. well that would be a dream if I don't try to do something now and pop the dream myself.. have a nice day to myself.. and don't forget.. I NEED TO GO.... aiks, forgotten.. this should be about High School Musical.. the show are rather.. hmm.. well... Sharpay has been twisting up the relationship of Troy and Gabriella... omg.. ... and Gabriella left Troy... what the... anything else.. you've to catch the show yourself.. it's nice and touching.. don't really have time to watch it fully... and the new song You're the Musical in Me.. don't forget to tune in to it.. it's really nice.. I bet you'd love it..

Nervous and Sleepy..

2007-08-27T17:35:00.000-07:00

I've presented my ESL presentation at last.... I'm quite nervous and there's many hand gesture as told by Ms. Abi... they've all surrounded me for my presentation.. that's make me quite miserable... pif.. and I'm a little bit shaky... at last I got only 32 out of 40... I thought I would get higher... as I only make slight mistake.... sad.. another girl that Ms. Abi said to have only limited language ability are given higher marks of her effort... I thought this is all about English???????? I know effort are important too... but.. what really takes into account are really should be English... it's unfair... pif... I've no idea.. and there's another 1 just read out of the presentation get the highest mark... I've no comment... ... maybe if I get a chance.. I should just read it out too... safe problems... .... Just got reply from ning... kind of excited... to think of that she'd actually gave me a reply... think this would really meant that our relationship has started new... I'm not saying that coupling would be the relationship... although I'd hope that... but it's kind of impossible.. but what happen in the future... just let it be... I'm quite surprise too that she really would consult me... if we can't really be couple... I might as well as being her best friend... giving her full support... actually .. It's myself ... I'm the one who can't accept it at first... if not.. won't be like this... well... at least it gave us time to calm us down... ning.. to tell you the truth... I still love you.. but then.. things can't be forced... that is what I learned through the past 3 years... I've tried to opened my heart as wide as possible.. to accept new things.. ... this may sound stupid... but.. I really hope that there's a girl that would love me as you did before... ... don't know what to do.. I have more problem to handle than to think of this now... I've gave an reply and will be sending the letter off tomorrow.... so sleepy... night...

Chat...

2007-08-26T08:32:00.000-07:00

finally finished my presentation's slide.. but the assignment.. not even 1 are done... omg.. the time are tightening.. I don't want to be strangled alive by Ms. Abi..... what to do... had a rather weird day... and now I'm having a long winded chat with both the walls.. not bad... pif pif...

Singapore

2007-08-25T09:12:00.000-07:00

the two very place I found it's nice.. or maybe more than that... I'm positive that there's a lot more to see just I don't have any chance yet.. there's Republic Polytechnic.. where I first met her.. and there's the library of Ngee Ann Polytechnic... which loaded with books and there's cubicle and conversation rooms named after the great names.. not to forget the place full of meat, meat, and more meat..... omg... think of it... even think also might add up the weight.. but the variety are much much much more.. but all those are meat.. not recommended to vegetarian lover.. meat lover are most welcomed.. almost forget.. it's Seoul Garden located in Causeway Point..

Test...

2007-08-25T08:49:00.000-07:00

The very test that I think it's easy... but then.. I don't know.. I had bad omen bout this.. always that when I think it's easy.. it would turn out to be very bad or worst even .. failed.... so better not to be too happy about it first.. if not, more hope more disappointments.. and not to mention I didn't address all the question... back to home rest awhile... wasting time and take a long hours nap... then at last my work commenced.... Jiv just make some confess with me something when we have a rather 'short' chat which my work has been suspended.. and I felt my eye are wet as we talk.... don't know why is it... and I'm not sure whether I should laugh about my stupidness or not or rather get angry..... hmm... .. don't want to think about it right now.. not really a good timing... and she.. I'm so confused, if she's happy then I'm ok with it... just hope that she could talk to me like the way she talk to him... don't know.... anyway, hope what he say is what he meant.... I've no idea what's going on... whatever.. .. I got lesser than 2 month to study for my external exam which holds all essential point... and I got Ms. Abi in other hand to strangle me if I didn't hand in all my IS assignment by next Friday.. I got my hand full now to even slip my mind into anything... this week I didn't even touch my ps2 at all.. it's great that I didn't if not I would be dead.. and I really have to send in my accounting assignment already... and consult Mr. Lee... he's a great lecturer.. and I really hope I can do well in his paper .. as for Kow.. I don't know.. but I would have to score too even his class are killing me off every minute... because it's my license to go in universities.. I can't ignore it just because Mr. Lee told me that math doesn't mean much.. .. concentrate !! .... head going to burst... the assignment.. not even on second question... its quite a tempt to just copy and paste.. but if I do so... I would cause ... so I don't want....

Harry Potter... Another Journey..

2007-08-24T10:14:00.000-07:00

Another Journey has started... Prisoner of Azkaban... Chamber of Secrets has finished... It's kind of sad that Ginny has been set up by Voldemort... she's so innocent .... and what a disappointment... Harry didn't even try to consult Ginny... ...

Ms. Abi suddenly came in the room with Mr. Nicholas... and then a new guy who later known as the new Academic Head... gave me a fright that those figure suddenly bumped in... well then I've prepared.. but then found out they just came in to make an announcement that the moral education class would be conducted after external exam finished... well not really a disappointment or anything as I really couldn't feel anything... because I've rather more time than any others and I don't really know what to do with those time... .... My jaw actually drop that.. a girl at age so young with a guy .. rather mature as I'd said... just looks like.. father and daughter.. but they're together.. not really weird.. because centuries ago already there's something happened... a girl that just blossomed would marry an old geek at those time.. well I think that things haven't change much... I'd think I have a mind that's came from the barbarian time... don't know... I would think that.. really.. a big gap isn't a good thing.. one of each other have to suffer at latter.. ... which I don't hope it would happen....

Seoul Garden...

2007-08-24T09:51:00.000-07:00

been to Ngee Ann Polytechnic, Singapore after school... kind of.. misses my remedial class.. ... in Ngee Ann Polytechnic... I accidentally saw something I wasn't suppose to see.. and.. kind of.. I felt like just got stabbed on the back.. well, not really that important.. I've prepared anyway... but then.. someone should have just told me if they don't want me to be there rather than just keep their mouth shut and stay down and no less that putting a dark face over... ... it's no point at all... I'm really quite an idiot... should have known at first... but then.. well.. at least i have a rather weird day and filled up some boring time .. ... I've gone to Seoul Garden.. and got my mouth full for 3 hours... stocked up meats .. I had a full mouth of meat.. they have variety of meats and seriously this is the third buffet that I didn't really puke at all.. mostly I would puke after I finished the buffet meal every time.. but.. to be honest, having a full mouth for 3 hours makes me think of that every minute in there are topping up my weight.. but.. really don't know what to do.. so I just ate and ate and ate.. .. until I really can't slot in anymore of the meat.. .. met many people today.. .. and there's a girl look quite interesting... hmm... .... isn't it too fast... don't know.. after this noon.. I really don't think I have the mood anymore.. and Jiv just acted like nothing happened.. ... I know something gone wrong since he started teasing me.. things are.. really .... .. don't know what to say... didn't even lay my finger on my assignment yet.. and there's a test tomorrow.. which holds up 7 points... I really need that point.. ... have to take a nap now and start flipping my text book .... and not to mention... today I drive quite rough.... maybe because of my mood.. .. kind of moody... ... hope the horoscope are real... that I could channel my will to something else more important to me at the moment.. non other than study... but, if there's any hope... I really does hope a girl would just pop up out of no where.. and give me support.. I do need it.. really much.. not by purpose.. just truly out of love... LOVE is the key .. key to everything... .. my eyelids are getting heavier by seconds.. ... seriously need a nap and I hope tomorrow would be a rather fast over class with me answering every question that would bring me honor.. I would be rather delighted to hear my name to be mention by Ms. How that I got the highest mark... or I've done very well... .. work hard work hard work hard.. ...

Sudden Call...

2007-08-23T05:47:00.000-07:00

That's my daily horoscope... * You're filled with a new energy that's largely focused on work or school. This makes it much easier for you to make serious headway on whatever project is most important to your ultimate success. * think I should really start.. Ms. Abi gave me a frightening call.. I'd expect that call sooner or later.. now that I must finish the assignment before next Friday... and the economics topic test are up ahead.. just this Saturday... too... there's accounting assignment.. I haven't been doing any...... ..... what rotten mind I had.. still dream to goes in Universities.. if I keep on.. I would never had my way out... ... i hate my self.....

Pre-requisite.... Mathematics..

2007-08-22T06:10:00.001-07:00

why must the subject that I dislike have to be a pre-requisite subject?! life really are harsh.. it's isn't that easy... didn't even pay any attention in Info system class.. why I acted so .... hate myself..... .. didn't even know what am I answering in mathematics class.. some more.. the guy beside me.. sleep all the way through.... ........ what had happened to me.. I'm not 1 of those stupid 1... and I'm not even with one disability.. although I think that me myself.. the look already a big disability... but I've to.. really.. got to try as hard as I can to survive through this........

Shepherd Pie..

2007-08-21T06:59:00.000-07:00

finally know what's a Shepherd pie would taste like.. I think it is like that.. not that sure.. I ate it at Kenny Roger.. should be shepherd pie.. taste quite ok.. not that dreadful .. just i didn't aspect it to be like that... i thought it's a pie... just like others... hmm.. kind of broke.. no money to use.. brought a set of chess.. and got another set free.. but there's some broken piece .. I've to exchange it.. eye are as blurry as always.. finally post out the gift already.. I reckon it would be arrive around 2 days.. since they called it the express mail.. today English's class is like .. kind of dreadful... don't know why.. my language ability seems like weaker and weaker as it go.. formatted my laptop at last.. all malicious software removed.. lighten up my laptop.. and too fasten it up..

Gift..

2007-08-20T08:11:00.001-07:00

This would be my first birthday gift to ning.. I felt guilt running inside my vein.. I just remember that I've promised her.. to send her present.. before that.. but i didn't.. .... I miss her.. I just gone to Harris and brought the things i need to give the present another add-on.. i add up a birthday card and give it a second wrap.. quite tired.. .. ning told me that she would mind.. if that is before.. but now things are over.. really.. as what she said.. .. talk to jiv.. i wonder.. what level .. or none.. i didn't even set any level that is too high or unreachable.. i just need a girl.. that is normal.. and love me.. that's all.... and, the girl.. she didn't talk to me at all.. I wish i could talk to her.. finished Harry Potter and The Philosopher's Stone.. next journey has go on..

Late Night Car Wash..

2007-08-19T09:59:00.000-07:00

don't know why.. I was thinking of working out all my accounting assignment.. but I didn't even buzz .. I didn't even lay a finger on the paper.. I hate myself... .. Having a chat with Janet really are a pleasant one.. she told me that she'd study in Australia.. think I will be missing her.. even though we merely just chat on-line.. we didn't talk much in the class.. or should I say.. not even 1 word.. but then the fact of which she's leaving made me feel sad.. Jiv invited me to Hi Tea this Friday at Seoul Garden.. hmm.. well.. I wish I could met her.. but then... I don't know.. maybe later.. I would ask Jiv how about meeting her.. and have dinner.. got my car washed up.. after a nap.. washing the car at late night.. what have gone into my mind? pif.. I really have to start working already.. if not.. .... the consequences are .. pif.. chat with Pei Thing too.. had a joke with her.. it does seems like I have a rather happy day.. but if you do stand at the end of it.. you will have a clear view that what I really had is a cloudy day.. that's because.. I didn't even start working at all... the mathematics topic test have been postponed to this Wednesday.. and too I've to hand up the assignment I owe Mr Lee... and, not less.. the IS assignment months ago still hanging... and there's too a topic test this Saturday.. and don't forget.. trial are around the corner.. I will be suffocate by this hectic schedule most probably.. but what to do? .. that's what you'd been into after you didn't worked out for month.. no more Final Fantasy for me until the final exam ends.. but the journey of Harry Potter shall prevail as its increased my language and writing ability..

Birthday..

2007-08-19T09:54:00.000-07:00

It was her birthday today... I wish I was there.. I wish I could celebrate with her... It's kind of sad.. maybe this is fate.. maybe.. I don't know... but at last, at that night I managed to chat with her for a little while.. she told me that she's very happy.. I hope that she will stick at that way forever.. stay happy.. that's all I wish for her.. and she told me that the stuff toy I've asked jiv to give her.. she said she like it.. I don't know whether it just a word to suit me or .. is she really happy.. I wish that she's really happy with it..

Collection Completed...

2007-08-17T06:42:00.000-07:00

At last... found Harry Potter and The Philosopher's Stone in Popular book store, Causeway Point, Singapore.. I'd know that Singapore would have the book.. in fact, they've a complete set too.. for adult and kid's version.. if I get to there last Tuesday, I would have a nice set of collection.. now.. my Order of The Phoenix are kid's version.. makes the whole set of books look weird... I wish I could return to the past.. forget it.. pif.. at least, i got the whole set.. now what I got to do is read up those book.. and finish all the work given at the same time... less tv, and no final fantasy... trials are coming.. I would be facing problems if I kept .... I hate myself.. ..... I brought a present for ning to after I brought the book... would deliver to her anytime.. her birthday are coming up... don't know why.. this morning.. dream of .. well then, I wouldn't mind much if it's real.. at least I wouldn't be alone anymore.. as long as what I needed is full filled... time to read.. ..

I will miss you...

2007-08-16T08:32:00.000-07:00

finally.. met the bloke today... the famous Jedidiah... he's same as always.. blurry.. but kind.. that's why I like him.. don't think the other way... I'm pretty straight.. and I only love girls.. he's my friend... one of my two friends.. 3 of us go watch movie today at Tebrau City.. the movie are quite a laugh but the ending are quite ... what to say.. blurry.. I still don't get what happened after the show finished... then we head to Daiman club later for badminton.. and head to Permas Jaya for further game joined in by lek hooi, ezekiel and guan yew later.. the group of 6 went to dinner near jiv's living place soon after we finished... As lek hooi made a wrong turn that lead to another way, that's because he didn't saw my signaling.. I got there first and parked the car and have a light walk around and they finally found their way back... we sit there's have our dinner and chats for hours.. leaded my blurry old friend Jedidiah back on the main road.. and we got caught in the traffic jam.. I will be missing him... hope can met him again before his departure.. and the thought of sending him off at the airport run through my mind.. I would told Jiv the next thing tomorrow morning.. Jiv told me that he would be going to Singapore.. so.. I can't help that thinking of meeting her.. but then... there's no way to her now.. even I did.. what I got to say to her? I might be standing there.. and watching as she move.. pif... but the thought of having a wand here, and disapparate this instant and apparate in front of her really delighted me..

Tiring...

2007-08-15T07:59:00.000-07:00

met her, then she looks quite sad.. or rather.. not happy.. maybe because she came by force... I don't wish her to be like that.. although the fact that we met have delighted me.. but.. still... if she's not happy.. then there's no point.. and.. we didn't talk much.. .. pif... hope that we could talk more..... ... back to the other side... tiring.. and .. in a moment there.. I thought that I would have heart failure.. I was so tired... and the bloody car just reverse without looking.. my heart was throbbing fast as if that it got hit by thunder.. felt pain.. .... I was lost in time as I grab Potter and then went with him.. journeying into Hogwarts.. at last.. the journey ended at 0520.. I was quite torn already.. I look into the mirror and saw the pale me.. and I felt as if I'm floating.. just like.. sailing in the sea.. and I know if I don't drop in the bed now and grab at least.. a nap.. then I would probably flinch.. skipped IS today... felt guilt.. but can't do anything about it.. I was not myself when I woke up this morning.. I felt as if there's 10000 gallon on my shoulder.. and I felt that I've twisted back... so I lie myself back into my bed.. didn't pay any attention in the mathematic class at all... ... been to Harris.. and I've gathered more books.. another 3 add into the collection.. now I just left 1 more to complete my collection.. I think I'll have to skip the philosopher's stone.. I would start with the chamber of secret... tiring.. miss you...

Tired.. but.. I hope She would know

2007-08-13T08:23:00.000-07:00

As tired as always.. today .. was released from class early.. but.. still I'm so tired.. not for my study.. but... was looking for her birthday gift.. quite tired.. but then.. at last.. after some turns.. I manage to got it.. actually.. it's not me.. who get the gift.... but.. I was kind of helping... I really wanted to buy her a gift.. actually i did.. what i meant is.. a guitar.. well.. the 1 Jiv's brought was.. quite.. hmm.. well.. average.. or should i say.. merely just called guitar.. but then.. as what he told me.. it would be quite weird to give her a present that .. as to say.. expensive.. if i can get nearer to her.. closer.. then maybe I could.. is there any chance? I don't know.. she live quite far.. and.. maybe I would go to .. there.. next year.. for my further study... Aw.... for her.. for myself.. I should.. ... start now.. after half hour of Harry Potter.. then I will be in my bed.. recharge for mathematics.. I got to workout everything.. because .. the next day is mathematics topic test.. and the lesson the lecturer gave are quite unbearable.. ... it quite trouble's me.. .... Argh.. forget it.. today's dinner are .. quite.. pif.. not nice at all.. and quite expensive... Kind of miss you.. do you know? .. I think not.. ... nearly forgot that.. today I was late.. for IS class.. I've ate 2 plates of fried rice.. I know people would think that.. 2 plates? .. anyway.. thats why I put on so much weight after I've managed to slim down at the first place.. I felt guilt.. but then.. I'm too lonely.. to quit eating.. and I've rushed to Harris to buy 2 books in the Harry Potter's series.. namely Chamber of Secrets and Prisoner of Azkaban.. My wallet allowance aren't enough for others book and.. I didn't see the other titles... The Blood Prince and The Philosopher's Stone..... and the front page of The Order of The Phoenix aren't the one I imagined.. it's kid version.. I'm finding the adult version.. as 3 of my collection are all adult's cover.. anyway... I got more allowance.. and I hope I could found the books in Singapore tomorrow.. and.. the most I hope is.. to meet her.. but.. I know I don't know what to say to her.. but.. I just wanted to met her... that's all..

... Bad Day..

2007-08-12T06:15:00.001-07:00

Not a very delightful day for me today.. I was reading harry potter from 1 o'clock in the evening until 6.15 in the morning.. eye are swollen.. but i still managed to hang on the book for hour.. simply just because of the book are too charming for me to let go.. as i read through i was imagining things as i always do when i was reading.. when it comes to a part where the you know who guy tortured and killed Gregorovitch.. makes me jumped up.. because that i heard a squeaky sound that i thought there were people standing behind me.. scare the hell out of me.. .. later that .. i notice that was only my book cover as i turning pages.. the squeaky sound can be heard in the dead silence of the night.. or should i say morning.. before the sun rise.. and the moon still hanging on the sky which directed its shine into my window.. even though i couldn't see the moon.. due to my room strong lighting.. i got 4 lights bulb installed on my room's ceiling.. thinking of the moon.. i resembled her.. i was dreaming before to see the shinny moonlight with the one i love together... and lying somewhere else.. that is comfortable.. but then.. this have to wait i guess... the main point is.. why that i say that it isn't a delightful day for me as things go down.. ok.. it's started with.. going out to a temple .. i know i wasn't belongs to that place.. and i didn't want to stay there.. and my mum clearly know that.. but she insisted to stay.. because of the heavy rain pour.. then.. i can't hold any longer and i rushed into the car and take a nap in it.. and it's end up going home without taking my dinner.. which now cause my tummy to roar.. so that.. i called a delivery... it's the new sausage bites pizza... don't know why.. i don't feel any joy after i swallowed most of the pieces and left 1 in fridge.. maybe the taste isn't good at all.. or.. maybe i have had enough pizza... in my mind.. i thought that food court's noodles are better.. .... and economical.. but then.. it's so weird to drive out alone and eat alone.. i don't like living under the shadow.. it's not me.. i got no choice to call pizza hut.. and my eye are quite blurry... due to final fantasy X and harry potter.. and I've gone to Mc Donald for the last 2 days.. that's a third meal wouldn't please me... ... I'm quite moody now.. ... anyway.. that's all for today.. got to go .. read on Harry Potter.. and go to bed before 10.30... tomorrow still have class....

Potter !!

2007-08-11T08:59:00.000-07:00

Potter journey continue 2 minutes later after my final fantasy X journey ended right at 11.20... talking to 1 of my classmate.. not really close.. but quite talkative.. hmm.. felt weird.. but.. anyway.. quite nice that someone would talk to me.. just he's a boy.. haha..

Harry Potter !!

2007-08-11T05:12:00.000-07:00

read up Harry Potter and The Deadly Hallow.. stop at pg. 134 chapter nine .. at middle of the morning ... around 4.50 AM... quite confusing.. because i didn't read through the whole series.. instead i started with the last.. but it's quite nice.. and exciting over time.. mad eye moody die... >.< ... George lost his ear... and Snape help the you know who??! ... confused!!!

I shall rise from past..

2007-08-09T06:29:00.000-07:00

shall I? .. guess I should.. and I would.. i got to work hard.. no matter how much barriers laid in front of me.. I shall break the barrier.. rush to the goal.. The song start of something new.. is very nice.. I think its really motivative.. even though I've heard the song over and over for around 100 times... but it still.. lighten up my heart.. when I sang through it.. I feel better... I do know this isn't the cure .. but.. at least... it lighten up my life.. most of the music does... I miss you.. I really do... but then.. I shall move on too.. you've already run past centuries.. but I.. still laying my head on the same ground... I shall rise.. awake.. from past.. I don't want to keep stumping on the same ground... I wouldn't forget you.. not because.. I don't want to... but.. just.. I don't think I'm able to.. guess what I've to do and able to do is only ... just keep those memory in a little space and then lock it up .. those memories you gave.. are sweet.. though... there's sour too.. but.. I wouldn't just remember those sweet moment.. as it's a part that curve on my heart.. and I shall tried to recover the lost.. not you.. but.. recover the lost.. the mistake I've done.. and do not again run into it.. I shan't.. .. tomorrow is a start.. of the new..

what happened?

2007-08-08T04:59:00.000-07:00

......................... Information System class today.. didn't concentrate at all... eye so blur... too blurry... can't even see what's at the board... don't know why... today my eye sight so blur... then Esl class... Ms. Abi didn't pay much attention to me... felt so .. ... pif.. anything.. anyway.. at last she told me that she would mark my answer sheet for advanced English... I've skipped my lunch and mathematics class too.. was thinking of going home to do the mathematics exercise.. but.. at last.. end up in taking a nap.. but... it's not a bad thing too... because .. I've recharged myself for economic class.. paying a 100% of concentration to the class today.. .. but i still need to read up.. if not i won't keep up at all.. work hard.. toward success.....

2 Tiring Days,,,

2007-08-07T05:32:00.000-07:00

horoscope of the day - * Your good energy helps you glide right through the day, no matter what's going on. Obstacles won't matter (much), and you might just find that a thorny work or school issue vanishes -- never to return! *

is this real? don't know... ...... why am I still like this... ... I'm a piece of junk...... ......... what am I doing now? .. there's a whole lot of assignment waiting to be done.. why i didn't even try to complete any.. ..... not any.. should be finish all... I take up the advance English... but... till now i didn't help myself... what am I .. hoping? ... miracle would just burst out in front of me? .... ..... why......... i hate myself........

The Place That I used to go and I've attached it in my Assignment..

2007-08-05T18:08:00.000-07:00

Malaysian Studies

A Place Where We Live and Called Home – Malaysia

Intro

Malaysia got it’s very own independence in 1957, August 31st. Since then we’ve been celebrating it for over 49 years and this is the 50th year. Just after the independence of Malaysia, difficult decisions are already pave their way there waiting for us. Malaya was the first to decide which territories should be included in the new state by giving choices to the states. The term Malaya was ended in 1961 after a new term Malaysia was used after the late Tunku Abdul Rahman convinced Singapore, Sabah, and Sarawak to join Malaya in a federal union. Singapore was then opted out of the union to being a stand alone country, peacefully, in 1965. There’s more to dealt with, another problems prefaced that is determination of a national identity. Malaysia are a mix of people from many races and cultures, and trying to unite them all under a nation wasn’t either an easy job. Since Malays are the majority population in Malaysia, 2nd are Chinese and Indian 3rd. Under the constitution malays are governed thus giving them permanent spots in the government, Islam are the national religion, and national language are malay. The government which are controlled by the United Malay National Organization, passed the New Economic Policy, which attempted to increase economic opportunity for the malay by establishing various quotas in their favor and many requirement are set under the new policy. This unsurprisingly has raised voices in the people. A significant opposition party then is formed and in 1969, the opposition party has won significant seats, riots swept through Kuala Lumpur and the country was placed in a state of emergency for two years. It was a painful moment in the young nation’s history. As time fade, things have been changed too. Changed to better.

Today, our nation has grown much and the peoples are living under prosperity that has arguably made significant progress in race relations. Many attribute the country’s success to the dynamic leadership of our former Prime Minister Tun Dr Mahathir bin Mohammed, who led the country from 1981 through 2003.

Malaysia's flag is based on that of the United States, a country whose democratic ideals the young nation sought to emulate upon gaining independence from Great Britain in 1957. The 14 stripes represent Malaysia's states, while the square in the upper left contains the moon and sun of Islam.

Tourism of Malaysia and the Year of Tourism 2007

This year we are hosting the Year of Tourism 2007 and celebrating our 50th Independence Day.
So, what’s really going on in our home this year? What’s new? And what’s fun?

Our Precious 50th Independence Day
As Malaysia celebrating our 50th years of independence in 2007, the month of August will be filled with a myriad of parades, cultural performances, street shows and carnivals to commemorate the country's 50th Independence Day on 31st August.
It started on 31st August 1957 when history was made as the Union Jack was lowered and the Malaysian flag hoisted, with the first Prime Minister, Tunku Abdul Rahman Putra Al-Haj leading the people in the famous shouts of Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka! (Independence!) This historical moment for our own Independence Day are held in the memorial place of Merdeka Stadium.
For more than 30 years, independence celebrations have been marked by parades involving uniformed personnel, corporate players, school children, cultural dancers, athletes and Malaysians from all walks of life. However, in recent years, the event has grown into a much anticipated and exciting month-long celebration nationwide.
This forthcoming Golden Jubilee celebration marks a significant milestone in the history of the nation. Join the enthusiastic crowd at the Merdeka Square in Kuala Lumpur on the eve of Independence Day for the countdown to this momentous event. Another highlight of the year will be the Citrawarna or Colors and Flavors of Malaysia parade, an annual event showcasing the rich and diverse cultural heritage of the country. This will be the grandest celebration for this event yet.

Malaysia invites all visitors to share in the joy and excitement of this momentous occasion. Come and be mesmerized by a unique multicultural populace celebrating 50 years of nationhood in harmony and peaceful co-existence. You will truly be fascinated.

Man Made Attraction

Sunway Lagoon

This very Malaysian Theme Park, Sunway Lagoon are operating in Kuala Lumpur the center of Malaysia.

It has won the 2007 Asian Attractions Award
By beating Hong Kong, Singapore, Thailand and The Philippines, Malaysia's Sunway Lagoon won the 2007 ASIAN ATTRACTIONS AWARD under the 1.5mil visitor category. The results were announced recently at the International Association of Amusement Parks and Attractions (IAAPA) Asian Expo at Siam Paragon, Bangkok, Thailand.

In collaboration with our nation 50th Independence Day, 50000 Malaysian will have a chance to spend a day in Sunway Lagoon Theme Park and enjoy the fun in the whole park for free just for this special day 8th of September 2007, 9am until 6pm. Simply just start to collect 5 mastheads from any of the local news paper below:

Berita Harian/Berita Minggu,
New Straits Times/ New Sunday Times,
The Malay Mail/Weekend Mail &
Harian Metro/Metro Ahad

Next, present the 5 mastheads to Sunway Pyramid Shopping Mall Information Counter, Sunway Lagoon Theme Park ticketing counters, Sunway Carnival Shopping Mall Information Counter, Penang and The Lost World of Tambun ticket counter in Ipoh to redeem 1 Free Ticket between 30 July - 4 Sept 2007. last, get prepared to go having fun in the park with the other 49999 Malaysian for this very day. What best are, if you collected more you will be entitled more ticket too, a person can redeem up to maximum of 6 tickets.
So start collecting mastheads from any of the local news paper named now!

Sunway Pyramid

There’s more to see at Sunway, other than theme park for family fun, Sunway Pyramid are a shopping heaven for those who love to shop till they drop. Discover a world of shopping and entertainment at this very place. With over 2.5 million square feet of retail and leisure offerings. Sunway Pyramid is truly one of the Klang Valleys landmark mega shopping developments.
Step out in style. Pick up the season’s latest creations, from casual to signature labels that would fit you with every occasion and drawn the true beauty out of you.

The shopping adventure never ends, and you could savor your taste buds with the bistros and restaurants in Sunway Pyramid for refreshment before you continue to fill up your collection into the cart. When comes to dining you will be spoilt by the choices that offer you great taste and sensations.

The entertainment hotspot featuring an Ice Rink, movie theatres, and an interactive zone and lots of other attractions for young and old that are waiting for you to explore, so what are you waiting for? Go and have fun after whole day work with your loves one.

Think that things never work without tech on hands? This is the right place for you all tech geeks. Keep up to date with the latest tech innovations. Get a first look at the coolest gadgets and gizmos to hit the stories. And get your own mobility here.

Genting Highlands

“City of Entertainment” this place got everything to offer to savor your every needs ranging from five star hotels to budget accommodation for your comfort and convenience. But before that you’d better keep your credit card ready for bookings because this tourist hot spot won’t keep room for you if you didn’t book for it for at least a week before you travel!

Dec 2006 Guinness World Records
First World Hotel - "The World's Largest" under the Feats of Engineering for Big Buildings

In terms of entertainment, this place offers great concerts in Arena of Stars, great shows and performances in Genting International Showroom, Genting International Convention Centre, Pavilion Hall, Karaoke, Cineplex and First World Plaza waiting for you to step in and explore for yourself.

If you wonder if there’s a place that would offer family gathering, friend gathering or simply to enjoy days with the one you love? There is. At Genting, there’s a theme park that provide you with endless enjoyment and excitement. There are rides for excitement and rides for touring the whole indoor and outdoor theme park. And if you ever imagining to be a superman when you’re a kid? Hmm, then you sure to not miss out the flying coaster.

Flying Coaster

Experience an Asian first: a hang-gliding roller coaster. Swoop, twist and zoom round turns and drops! With the Flying Coaster, you'll "fly" with a totally unobstructed view of Genting and its beautiful scenery.

The Flying Coaster is Genting's new ride, a unique hang-gliding roller coaster, designed by renowned coaster designer Werner Stengel and manufactured by Zamperla of Italy. It gives thrill-seekers the incredible sensation of zero gravity, together with the realistic effect of flying.

The ride lifts the flyer to a height of 20 meters and releases the flyer to a hang gliding flying experience over 391 meters of the track length, with a maximum speed of 25.7 mph.

The unique positioning of the passengers - four riders "fly" together, side by side - is a new way of experiencing drops, spirals and swooping turns from the "front seat." The flyer will experience a constant change of acceleration throughout from negative 1G to 3.6G on the vertical movements and 1G on a lateral movement.

Notice:
Minimum height requirement: 137cm
Pregnant women and persons with heart, neck or back conditions are not allowed to take this ride.

If you love the scenery and excitement together, you just can’t miss out this mixture of both. Space Shoot is a ride which brings you up to a point where the ride will stop for a five minute to give you a pleasure of viewing the scenery. And then drop you down back to the ground which is very adrenaline pumping.

Ride Facts
Type of Ride Intense, not for faint-hearted
Country of Origin USA
Manufactured By S & S Power Inc
Speed 67 km/hour
Maximum Capacity 12 persons
Height 185 feet

While come to dining, there’s a lot more to offer to savor your taste buds. Lots of variety of foods to choose from such as oriental, continental, buffet, local favorites, cafes / snacks and there’s also a great dinner time with night entertainment. Guess are welcomed to dining in with their love one in their place.
It’s a shoppers’ paradise up at the hill. Now you can enjoy shop-till-you-drop at the highest shopping arcade in Malaysia. A wonderful and amazing world of shopping, food and entertainment are open up for you all. Goods are range from accessories, apparel, arts and craft, gift and souvenirs, health promoting and more for you to see. There’s too fast food for you to fill up your tummy before you start another hunt.

The Malaysia Mega Sale Carnival this year returns with
Exciting events and activities, bargains, discounts and promotions for shopperholics.
The 2007 Malaysia Mega Sale Carnival (MMSC) is back with a BANG!
And the sale this year promises to be bigger, better and certainly much longer than ever before. Why? Because Malaysia celebrates her 50th year of Independence, the date of this incidentally falls during the carnival period. So naturally, we’re looking at a grand shopping fiesta lasting 11 whole weeks!

From 16th June till 2nd September 2007, shoppers can indulge in the great bargains, promotions, activities and contests that guarantee a shopping spread to satisfy even the most seasoned of shoppers. So put on your most comfortable pair of shoes and gear up for our grand shopping carnival - have yourself a marvelous time shopping with us! So what are you waiting for? Rush to your nearest shopping center and start to shop!!

Mid Valley Megamall
A ride to, a walk across, a generous experience awaits you when you arrive at Mid Valley Megamall. Located in the heart of an exciting valley, Kuala Lumpur’s most sensational shopping destination opens its doors to you where we promise the zest of today’s fashion, mouth-watering flavours of culinary galore, indulgence of pampering services alongside the convenience of everyday shopping.
That’s not enough, we want to be your treasured one-stop destination mall and we know everyone has some sort of preferred activity, surely there are gym enthusiasts and movie buffs, ardent bowlers and serious readers, IT experts and toy-collectors, home-proud owners and food-lovers, not forgetting the fashion dwellers in everyone of us! Don’t worry being spoilt for choices, that’s what we are here for!
We know you probably have a busy working day, everyday and so, we have three of Malaysia’s successful anchors, Metrojaya, Jusco and Carrefour taking care of your daily needs. Be it a dress you need for Friday dinner or a carton of drink for your little toddlers, we have it for you. Just come by the Mid Valley Megamall any time between 10am to 10pm daily.
Come watch Hollywood’s big pictures, sweat a little in California Fitness, indulge in a smorgasbord of cafes and authentic restaurants and pick up that feisty pink t-shirt you saw last week! Enjoy the enchanting shopping experience, delighting in every step you take, every floor you explore and each corner your footsteps take you. Incidentally, our Customer Service Counters located at the Centre Court, North Court and South Court on the Ground Floor will assist you in any way you need. Just seek those friendly faces for anything you need. We are here for everyone, and for the elderly and physically challenged, there are wheelchairs and power-scooters to help them get around our mall. Mommies and their Little Darlings will find Mid Valley Megamall a second-home too, for we have well-appointed Babyrooms to keep those rosy cheeks a tender shade of pink!
Imagine yourself here? Now, visit our home, the Mid Valley Megamall. Only you know what it is like to be under one roof, enchanted from the moment you touch the delightful shopping experience. See you soon. We can’t wait!
Lending a hand to you anytime anywhere when you’re in Mid Valley. Don’t worry that if you’re first time out with your adorable baby, or simply just buying present for the birthday boy or girl to be wrapped up nice, whatever what you need the staff are there to extend their little gestures to take care all of your needs when you walk around, just to give you more time to look for others that you’re finding instead of juggling things out here. For your convenience there’s also ATMs, dentist, banks, post office, clinic and etc set up in here to provide you the most satisfactory when you’re in Mid Valley.

Suria KLCC
Suria KLCC is Malaysia's premier shopping destination located at Kuala Lumpur prestigious commercial address, the Kuala Lumpur City Centre (KLCC). It offers an array of goods and services to please and pamper the needs of shoppers; from fashion, entertainment, arts & culture to local delicacies and international gourmets.
Set in the heart of Kuala Lumpur's Golden Triangle, Suria KLCC is surrounded by hotels, office buildings, a scenic park and dancing fountains, promising hours of leisurely pleasure. From whichever entrance you take, the excitement hits you the minute you step into the sensational splendor and diversity of the centre.
There is always something for everyone to savor at Suria KLCC:
6 levels of retail outlets with each level of a distinctive character and style.

Anchor tenants are Isetan, Parkson Grand, Tanjong Golden Village and Signatures Level 2 Food Court. Other key tenants include Marks & Spencer and Rasa Food Arena. Including destination shop such as Pucuk Rebung and Aseana which are located exclusively at Suria KLCC.

Shopping, restaurants, cafes, entertainment, leisure, home decor, a concert hall, an art gallery and a science discovery centre.

Customer-friendly facilities which include well-trained customer service staff, taxi, and bus stops, ample parking bays, a post office which opens throughout weekends, a Bureau de Change, a cobbler, a locksmith, florist and ATM to savor all your needs in Suria KLCC.

Designing An Architectural Icon – Petronas Twin Tower
There’s something that you wouldn’t want to miss when you visit the Suria KLCC. That is the two towers that embedded on the ground of Kuala Lumpur golden triangle just beside Suria KLCC.
The PETRONAS Twin Towers was designed by Cesar Pelli & Associates (USA) in association with KLCC architects.
The tower's floor plate design is based on simple Islamic geometric forms of two interlocking squares creating a shape of eight-pointed stars. Upon the eight-pointed stars, are eight superimposed semi-circles softening the inner angles.
These semicircles are themselves anchored by the arcs of the main structural columns of the buildings. The semi-circles were superimposed in the inner angles of the interlocked squares to create more usable floor space.
The design details continued to dictate the way in which the buildings would rise in as graceful a fashion as possible. To maintain the vertical axis and tapering of the design, each tower is set back five times in its ascent.
Architecturally, these forms reflect the paramount Islamic principles of "unity within unity, harmony, stability and rationality."
At the uppermost floors, the walls are gently sloped inward to taper and contribute visually to the height and the elegant form of horizontal silver ribbons of stainless steel.
Every aspect of the design contributes to the audacious verticality of the Towers. The decision to symmetrically align the Twin Towers and connect them with a spanning bridge emphasized the classical nature of the architectural design.
The writings of Lao Tse, the ancient philosopher and founder of Taoism in China, tell that the reality of a hollow object is in the void and not in the walls. Cesar Pelli, architect of the Towers, has drawn upon the strength of the void between the buildings -- delineating an invisible axis of symmetry. For the architect, it is this void that gives the PETRONAS Twin Towers their sense grandeur and unique identity.

Friend's birthday

2007-08-05T09:10:00.000-07:00

today.. it's my friend's birthday.. pif.. think its okay.. quite normal already that.. i didn't attend friend's birthday.. I only attended my classmate birthday at 2003... pif.. at last.. finished my malaysian study assignment.. sob.. at last.. work hard ... I've got to continue my work.. no matter what... i couldn't give up... not now.. i wont...

Gathering The Aeon.. Pif.. What Am I Doing?

2007-08-05T02:58:00.000-07:00

I don't know what Am I doing now days.. homework unfinished but i still going on final fantasy... pif... was gathering the powerful Aeons now... and later would be gathering the celestial weapon that are so powerful... sounds cool and looks cool too... I've almost finished gathering the Aeons.. now just left the last Aeon to be unlocked after defeating 2 more dark Aeons.. Magus Sister is the most powerful of them all now.. and not to mention the horrifying Anima which could kill most of the monster just with a normal blow.. ... these day my right eye keep juggling.. I'm not sure what would happen next.. but I think its a good thing.. because people said that.. when your right eye juggling means.. there's something good would happen and if left eye juggle.. then .. there would be bad thing happen... pif.. don't know yet.. quite sad... Wen Wen didn't come.. ordered a make your own stuffed crust pizza yesterday.. dipping the pizza with the McDonald's BBQ sauce are so nice... I felt so full after that...

The Journey Paused Here..

2007-08-02T05:20:00.000-07:00

at last... my journey on final fantasy was paused.. because of.. I've already got to the end of the story... killed Braska's Aeon.. and Yu Yevon... sad.. I've to kill all the aeon that i love... now it's the time to acquire some nice item.. and really complete it.. but.. before that.. i would have to complete my study first... really really need to concentrate already... today will be sleeping early... and finish up the economic assignment.. today class are quite boring...
... everyone lost something.. but.. everyone also have to start now to gather something... that's what i think after finishing the story... and.. everyone got to have a new dream.. and build it up.. not to give up.. even you're on your own.. you will still can be the best.. .. move toward the best.. toward the new me..

Old Friend...

2007-08-01T07:01:00.000-07:00

pif... Mr Jedidiah.. my old friend... he will be going soon... kind of miss him... when he's here.. i wont be that bored... at least he could chat with me.. and teach me things that i don't know... life's is so tired... real friends have to go.. but those junk left here.. now i only left 1 friend... and there's something funny today... Jiv got scared when a dog keep following him... i got scared too... but I'm a little more calm then him... he acting like a child.. just jump in my car... today food are quite bad.. but at least I'm so full... pif... jam again... guess that already.. but ... after this week i wont be having dinner with Jiv already.. so a day wont hurt i guess.. pif.. done nothing again for my education... it's so bad... so unforgivable.... i should have study hard... ...... why i keep faking promises....... I'm a jerk... ...

Jam Jam and sO Jam..

2007-07-31T07:24:00.000-07:00

the road back and to Jiv living place is so jam... today got to the chinese shop to eat tofu... and chicken... and hor fun... the food are just normal ... not really that nice... but .. eating with friend.. so not bad.. at least i don't need to eat alone.. today at Ayub mamak stall there ate chicken chop and briyani rice... the briyani are nice.. but the chicken chop are salty... today class quite bored.. pif... miss pei qi and wen wen...

A day for crying...

2007-07-30T08:17:00.001-07:00

don't know why... just feel like crying.. think I've wasted money today by buying a communicator... should brought a PDA.... watched harry potter again... think its nice.. cause jiv late for his homework today.. even though I'm not sure did he do his work or what.. but then... it's not a nice thing to delay others time... ... don't know what to say... blur...

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